Defeated or Realization..

Damn..Thursday Jan 6th my first day of back to training. They took us basically to a mountainside very high up, alright soccer fields with one of the most beautiful overhead views of a beach I've ever seen. I wish I could've taken picture of it. Anyways I was off to my first training session with Barranquilla FC (2nd division team Junior is the owner of them as well) I don't know why they told me to train with them, but I'm willing to train wherever they tell me. Anyways it started out well some warming up, movement, stretching some short passes, long passes mixed up. Then we played a 90 minute match.......For the first time in my very short 18 month career I have never felt that I couldn't keep up. It finally caught up to me, the partying, the going out, the kicking it at home, even the I'd rather eat and workout then go to the park and run. I was physically incapable of lasting on the field, I couldn't run anymore I was burnt out, I seriously felt like I was going to pass out. After the training session they told me to be at el Estadio de Romelio at 6am for a scrimmage game I assume on Saturday. I was sort of just glad to have another chance, as I'm here on trial so after every training session my fate is brought to me by either inviting me to another training session or sending me home...

Anyways after the long bus ride, then taxi ride home. I finally fell into my room and just turned on the shower and sat on the floor with cold water falling at my back. I prayed, and even then it couldn't make me feel better...Like I said I just felt so defeated. I don't know if it maybe just hit me that I'm not going to make it as a professional, or is this a test from God saying if you REALLY want this show me, and truly dedicate yourself. Nonetheless I'm not just going to give up, I'm gonna try and until they send me home I will. I hope that day doesn't come but if it does, I will be heading back to school and enrolling in University to pursue my degree and take over the family business. BUT until that day I will continue to strive for what I want. I have faith things will turn out the way God has planned for them to. I don't think this was all accidental or any of that. I trust in God and He says in the bible before you are promoted, I must see how you handle adversity and failure. I know I've talked about this in the past, so I guess I have to push through this again.


I've always said this blog is my life, not my success, not my failure, it's life. It's real it is what it is. So yeah gotta hustle, gotta grind, Lord make your will mine. I'm out everyone stay up & keep pushing forward 2011 BIG year were only one week in, 358 days left to make it a productive one get to it!


God Bless..!

Sh-- that made me laugh...

Lol I got these pics from my friend Valentina shes kinda wack but a cool girl....hope you enjoyed them those were a few I loved the Brad Pitt one...aight im out...

God bless

Colombia..

Short post...Got here yesterday missed everyone out here, they make me feel right at home. Went to the training ground today, and was told to come back Thursday @ 3pm and report for training, and then again Saturday. From there I don't know what's next...So till then push ups, core, sit ups, reading of the bible, eating, music, and internet, will take up my days. My parents get here Saturday but Friday comes my cousin Isabella I've talked about her a lot and told you guys how important she is to me, so it's gonna be really cool to have someone like that around for a little bit at least. Nothing like support from those who love you the most. My parents get here Saturday but won't be in the same city but hopefully I'll have a day or two off to drive out to Cartagena to see them. Anyways those of you back in Miami who actually took the time to hang out with me, call me, text me, email me, tweet me, facebook me, etc to wish me well before I left and good luck, thank you! I have a good feeling of faith right now and am ready to work...You may not have seen it in the past but if you’ll stay in faith, it’s just a matter of time — victory is on it's way...


God bless!

End of the year.

So much stuff to write about! It's 1:34AM I expect to be up to about 2AM probably just writing, texting, tweeting, facebooking, AIM, it's gross how technology dependant I've become but oh well. I'm excited for things to come in 2011, I'm saying it now and saying it with confidence it's gonna be a real big year! So I'm going to try and go as far back as possible back to Colombia. As you guys know I was on trial with Junior (de Barranquilla) with the reserves of the first team. And it went well I am officially going back on Jan 2nd and having a second trial. I can not thank God enough, and I'm pretty sure some of my actions since my return to Miami haven't been that great, I've asked for forgiveness and made a change. I went out one last night and haven't gone out since. I told God I'm gonna dedicate myself to the things that need to be taken care of, and stick to them. So I haven't been going out despite the fact that I'm itching to! It sucks I got accustomed to that lifestyle, but lifestyle changes have to be made. I swear my mom tells me the coolest quotes you guys already know the one I excessively talk about, but this one was cool she said "Danny if you want to make your dream come true you need the three D's. Discipline, Determination, and Desire. LOVE THIS. My mom is dope. #thumbs up! Yeah I use hashtags now, cause I'm a twitter guy. Follow me @DannyPlaySoccer.

So I tried looking for my goals of 2010 but I couldn't find them :/ anyways I don't think I was relatively to successful but this year has come and gone, and am now looking forward to a real big 2011. Many are wondering what's going to happen with Traffic and I as a lot of people know on Dec 31st there was an option that had to be excersized in whether to move forward and renew a 2 year contract or to go our seperate ways. I think both parties would agree it was best to go our seperate ways, and so we did. All the legal paperwork hasn't been done yet, but it should be processed soon. So this basically means I'm a free agent and own the rights to my soccer pass :). Hopefully everything goes Gods way and His will and I sign in Colombia. Just gotta have faith and trust in God.

Christmas was awesome I mean I didn't really get anything extraordinary, but it's cause I'm blessed with everything I want already, but it was a lot of fun spoiling my mom, dad, and brothers with gifts. Always remember it's better to give then to get. I know society tries to f--k up your mentality with greed but don't be fooled. It's always good to give, when your in a position that enables you too.

People continue to fall in and out of my life, but for some reason I stand unaffected by it, something I really love to do though, is meet new people. I don't know why I love having conversations with different people, and learning about them. Sometimes at least.

My dads job the family business has really excelled this year. My brother began working there part time, I work there along with my mom voluntarily (my mom has her own job). The company has grown an incredible 24% and that just goes to show you that with God all things are possible! Never let any hater tell you otherwise. That's one thing I really can't stand a hater, they're just so negative, and annoying. But whatever my dads business has really excelled and all the glory goes to the man upstairs thank you God for your work over my life, and my families life. My dads job is a freight forwarding company so if you need anything at all shipped from here to Colombia we got you with the best prices and service. Allcourier.com . Yeah that was my promotional bit! :)

I want to give a special thanks to my boys, I know I chill with a lot of different people, but like I said I like vibing with different people, but for sure these guys who come out and party with me, and have been my boys like family since 6th grade yall know who you are no need to name you guys, but man you guys are true friends love yall and wish you guys nothing but the best in all your endeavors brothers! 3

Uhmm so it's technically the 29th, and I leave the 2nd, crazy! Today the 29th is going to be filled with hopefully a breakfast date :) working at the family bizz, working out, eye doctor, some errands, and than a dinner date with mi amigaaaaa with great food involved! the 30th is going to be a free day to do things for me, but at night I'm gonna be with my friend having a quiet evening and hopefully catching a movie that I've been wanting to watch I forgot the name but I know when I see the name it'll come back to me. The 31st/1st with my family and enjoying there company while with them and the 2nd I'm outta hurrrrrrr.

Excitedexcitedexcitedexcited for 2011!! I know big things are coming, dream BIG, cause you have a BIG God. No point in dreaming a mediocre dream! Thank you all of you that have helped me, or betrayed me, loved me, or hated me, I've gotten to meet, or have stepped out, cause it is you people who have molded me into the person that is stepping into 2011. I've grown through so many mistakes this year. God all I want to do now is receive your shower of blessings, and return to you all the Glory, I don't seek no crown, no fame, no glory, I give it to you as you are the reason for my success and the one who deserves it all not me God. Thank you all for reading sorry if I bored you with a long post, that wasn't quite interesting on my points and views, but just more about me and what's to come! Have a blessed day/night and never forget to walk around with a smile on your face :)


God Bless!

One week later.

One week. All it took for me to push peoples buttons, and almost manage to tarnish a marriage. Crazy right? If anything you'd think I'm fuc-ing with someones wife or something, but na it's my own family. Monday night I got back from NYC I made a stupid selfish decision, Thursday I managed to do it again & to than Saturday was the icing on the cake. I disrespected, & nearly tore a family apart. I'm really that selfish of a person? Do I really think about myself and not others? I won't get that into detail but I mean I was born and raised with proper principles, proper morals, and pretty much a spoiled life. Why the hell can't I give back everyday to those who give me everyday. Who break there OWN backs for ME. Why must I attempt to please everyone and live a life that's not true. I was hit with some pretty hard words today, words that make u scared, words that make u feel pain, and not one mans pain, but 5 peoples pain, a families pain.

My friends who really do keep up with my blog know how I am. I'm never one to be shy about myself, and whether I had great success or great failure I will write about it. I'm not one of those people who only talk or show my face when I succeed only, I tell my story whether it's good, or bad. Cause I know it's something people can relate to. If I would only write when things were going good, everybody would think I have the perfect life. But that's not the case, the truth is I have been through a lot and will continue too, this just helps me vent and I hope it may also serve as a motivational tool one day for some people or maybe an inspiration, whatever. That being the case I'm making changes. I'm not really sure how many times I've said this or if I've even said it, but I really am. For now don't worry what exactly I'm going to do, cause quite frankly I'm not 100% sure yet what I am going to do, but definitely making changes and going to move forward with them for my own good. Is that me being selfish again? I hope not I'm just trying to change my life for the better. And not only for the better for me, but for those I care about most. Todays words from my dad also made me realize how true is the fact that my friends are counted probably on my fingers.


I also wanted to mention how incredibly stupid I've been over the past 18 months with my soccer career. I know what I want in life but at the same time I want to live a lifestyle that has it all when I don't. Not even close. If I truthfully would've gave soccer my all and tried right now I should be making a lot of more money, be a lot more successful. Instead I'm struggling, grinding, hustling. See in the past 18 months, I've taken soccer for granted and probably as of last month I took it serious again, and was really working at it, until I came back to Miami and people put me back into a lifestyle I love but isn't healthy and will end real quick for me unless I get on my sh-t. So I hope I'm able to salvage my soccer career after an 18 month money blowing, hurt my own body, ignorant, arrogant lifestyle. I've lost people, I've lost friends, I've gained friends, met great people, seeing lives changes, seeing lives taken, time to take my fuc-ing life into my hands and fight for what I want. Most importantly return to a lifestyle that's pleasing to God. Not a lifestyle that pleases me or you, cause why should I give a fu-k about making myself or you happy, when God gave me everything, he's kept me alive, he's kept me going, he continues to bless me. Heeee deserves my life, so I now try to make changes for the better to put a smile on my Gods face. If you down with my life, fu-k with me then, if you not ride out. I slipped, I don't do that often but glad my parents caught me slipping before someone else did. Cause my family gave me a second chance, you may not understand why I'm going so deep, but it's cause some sh-t isn't mentioned on here, but just know that I'm changing, so if ya see me and tell me I changed I hope you can say it's for the better, unless your a promoter and I'm not fuc-ing throwing hundreds in your pocket for something I can cap for $25 at the corner store. I'm not down to waste another 40k over the next 18 months. I don't got money like that, I don't want to live a life like that, I'm done. So enjoy what I gave you world, enjoy it good, cause I'm changing going back to God now, it's not easy I'm a prideful ni--a but I know God awaits for me with arms open. I just hope this time when he closes his arms around me, I don't let go again or push him away. God told me......I need gratitude maybe just a sample, cause he never gave me anything that I really couldn't handle..

God Bless..

December 7th - December 31st.

Plans galore! I've been in Colombia now for a like about a month, although I was only suppose to be here for about a week, but that's how this life is always changing always moving, always progressing. Thank you God for helping me each day and raining my life with a shower of blessings! But anyways although I'm not much of a planner I usually just have goals and ideas and try to make them happen as time passes, I actually have some planned stuff ahead!

EDITED:::::

Today the 7th I'm flying back home. Get in around 8ish then be with my family and friends till the 9th.
(Check)

Next day the 8th going to check out La Roux live @ Mansion nightclub.
(Didn't happen found out my mom leaves to Chicago for a week on Sunday so she said to spend time with her and the family & not go out).

The 9th around 6ish I'm off to NYC with my brother his girlfriend, and friends should be a lot of fun.
(Check, amazing time)!

The 11th while in NYC going to check out Eric Morillo, and Fedde Le Grand live @ Pacha nightclub.
(Didn't happened ended up at a lounge/club called Butter very upscale very nice awesome time, thanks again Viviana)!

The 12th it's off to see a HUGE rivalry & division game between the Miami Dolphins vs the New York Jets.
(Check, huge success tons of fun, got the W. Almost got into a brawl with Jets fan they backed off lololol don't mess with a group of passionate Miami fans)!

Then the 13th on plane back to Miami.
(Check, currently on the way back home free wifi :))

The 14th-23rd I gotta manage a way to do my private training sessions, work out, work with my dad, have a meeting with Traffic (more on that on another post), make travel arrangements for Colombia (more on that on a later blog), go to church every friday, spend time with family & friends, feed the poor the 18th in downtown, play a poker tournament the 19th in Ft.Lauderdale, and do Xmas shopping. I'll cope though always have, always will!
(We'll see how this goes though I feel as if I'm gonna be able to incorporate time for everything thank God, I'm actually pretty excited to return to church this Friday)!

24th-25th Christmas celebrations with the people I love and care about the most.

26th-30th finish up anything I wasn't able to do from the 14th-23rd.

31st my boy Dustins birthday, and new years eve party (still undecided what exactly is going down)!

Well that's just the timeline for me for the next 24 days got some exciting stuff in there, I plan on doing probably two more blog posts before this year is over, one covering if I was able to succeed in my goals of 2010! I'm excited for the way things are going in my life right now, BELIEVE & have FAITH in GOD He will always lead you in the right way, remember Gods grace won't ever take you where He won't protect you walk with your eyes closed sometimes and trust in your mighty God :) feeling good right now, take care everyone thanks for reading! :)

God Bless!!

A special thank you, Un agradecimiento especial.

Well I'm all packed up & ready to go. My flight back home leaves @ 5:30pm from Barranquilla, Colombia back to my home city Miami, FL :) . I just want to thank the Lizcano family for taking care of me and bringing me in and really being a true example of family. The rest will be in spanish for them to read.

Primero de todo perdoname por si no entienden ciertas partes porque no puedo escribir el espanol tan bueno jaja. Pero hablando en serio Conchi, Alvaro, Mari, Andrea, y MAIKA!! Jaja gracias por todo. Le doy gracias a Dios que tengo familia como ustedes me a sentido en casa todo este tiempo que me a quedado por aka. Les quisiera pagarle con algo, pero no ay forma en pagarle de vuelta como ustedes me an dado amor de familia, cuidado, y ayudarme. Si Dios quiere vuelve en Enero, firmo con el Junior y me puedo quedar mas tiempo con ustedes. Alvaro gracias por darme sus consejos, Conchi gracias por quidarme y siempre estar pendiente de mi, Mari y Andrea gracias por presentarme a amigas, a los novios, y por sacarme a divertire me y tal cosa, y ultimamente gracias a Maika jaja por cocinarme todaaaaa la comida de este mundo jaja. Pero solo queria darle gracias a todos!! Estoy muy feliz y mas de todo orgulloso para decir que ustedes son MI FAMILIA! Nos veramos de nuevo pronto y hasta ese dia Feliz dia de las velitas, Navidad, y ano nuevo no tomen mucho sin mi jajaja! Bueno que mi Dios lo siga bendiciendo y otra vez gracias por todo un abrazo!!

Danny :)


God Bless!