Thursday, July 14, 2011

Late...

My dream is soccer. Help me not to get sidetracked. But it's tough we live in a world that demands something out of yourself at a certain age. I'm not there, I try doing things on the side, but I shouldn't be there. My goal, dream, profession is soccer. Can't I just be happy with what that brings? Why can't I learn to admire the struggle for the reward will be greater once achieved. God is love, He is my life, doesn't that provide enough for me? God you are my provider, but times are hard, I won't lose faith...But I do hope your working behind the scenes of my life, I know I'm not worthy but please help. I'm asking for aide. Distractions, society, things life tell you to do, have, it's late I don't need to be awake right now. Time for bed. Decisions, possibilities, hopes, rest in Your hands, not mine.

God Bless

Wednesday, July 13, 2011

Jax Destroyers

Maybe it's too early to be writing up a season report since there is four games left, but then again maybe my time is up in Jacksonville? Keep reading..

A season that has been filled with highs and lows, excitement, disappointment, potential, and failure. It's been a learning experience and one that I won't soon forget. I have been apart of the some of the most unluckiest and bizarre situations in football this season. I have also been apart of a great family who I care like they're my own now. I've made mistakes up here, have had success, needless to say this season has been all over the place. BUT if I could wrap the season up so far in four words I'd say they would have to be "what could have been". Because I mean the team we had was just wonderful, I'm talking about talented players, but just sometimes things don't click...Anyways the Jacksonville Destroyers as a franchise is somewhere I would like to play, even next year (if I'm not playing pro). They have a lot to offer, they have a great fan base, and it's truly a blessing to be playing here. Still though, I feel a lot of things could have been handled, gotten done, and been done better. But then again it is a first year franchise so there will be mistakes but you do hope for less than more. Anyways I don't think to many people who read this care so much about the franchise in it self. So in recent developments this past weekend we lost 5-1 to IMG, then won 2-1 versus Ft. Lauderdale. We have had injuries, players leave, and other players just quit this season heading into the Ft. Lauderdale game we saw something most likely unheard of in FL PDL teams at least. Our coach and former professional who was still relatively young under 30 Eric Dutt told us he'd be taking the pitch with us versus Ft. Lauderdale in order to give the team the best chance to win. He definitely looked nervous at first, but as the game went on he got more comfortable with himself and to be honest surprised all of the guys with playing a good game. So after an uplifting motivating 2-1 win, the next day we hear coach Eric Dutt has been fired by management. Now mind you we have had a terrible season results wise, but with 12 days left in a season to let a guy go it just didn't seem right especially after he put himself out there and we got a win you know?

So that was tough to see and nobody was really sure of who the next head coach was going to be, so a lot of guys began to say there packing up and leaving before or after this weekend and not going to complete the season. In the mix of all this "drama" so to speak, I began doing my own searching with the help of some people. I ended up speaking with the head coach of the playoff bound Orlando Kraze. The coach put it to me very simple after him seeing me play before and looking for a left back. He said "You have a place to stay already, and training is at 8AM tomorrow hope you can make it." As a soccer player when a coach is giving you that much confidence and desire to be somewhere it's always really comforting. So with that I wanted to give it some thought and see what was going to happen with my already team here in Jacksonville before making a final decision.

We proceeded to our training ground at the specified time with our director and new head coach Aidan Davidson. Aidan was the former GK coach, who had left the team earlier this year, and now was coming back as head coach with 12 days left. I'd be lying if I said the team was not disappointed to see Eric leave, but by the same token I don't think anyone was upset that Aidan was our new head coach. Mainly because he played 20 years of soccer at the professional level, in the premiership over in England. So his resume with that alone, speaks for itself. And the man obviously has knowledge of football. So now I was in a predicament, on whether to leave to a playoff team for the ending of this season, or finish out what I came to do this summer with Jacksonville. After a lot of thought, speaking with family, friends and peoples who opinion matter most to me. I gotta say I got my most important conversation from Josh the assistant coach, him and I talk a lot about a range of topics but the two big ones are always God and soccer. So after speaking with everyone and thinking things through my decision was to stay with Jax. I was upset with myself, because the night before the meeting I had sat down with God prayed and worshipped and felt this sort of unsure feeling of where to go. My mind was set on Kraze, but with God when you have an unsure feeling then what your thinking is more often than not wrong. I mention this because I want to publicly say that I struggle submitting myself with sometimes Gods decisions for me. I thank God He put people in my life like family, and friends to help me with my decision, but in the end I care about what God has next for me. So if you ever struggle with decision making, let God have control and SUBMIT yourself to Him. He will guide you better than anyone can.

So with that my decision is to stay with the team, complete this season and see where I go from there. In other news Allie and I have been making huge pushes to get my name out there and get possible trials. Allie as always one of the biggest helps in my soccer career, and we are doing everything possible to have something come my way. I will keep everyone updated on trials that I might have or go to, as the time comes. For now we got a new head coach 11 days left in the season it's time to work hard, and finish strong. So follow the team on our website @ WWW.JAXDESTROYERS.COM and on Twitter at @JaxDestroyers . That's it for me today, I'm blessed with so many great people around me from the Pitman family which I'm staying with to the coaches God has put in my path. This summer has been a good one in my eyes personally I believe and it's not done yet, time to go out with a bang! Never stop chasing...accept that failure, struggle, and not the best conditions will be given to you but as I've always said on this blog. "Las cosas con mas sacrificio dan las mas grandes recompensas". The things with the biggest sacrifice, will always have the best rewards. For those of you going through hard times as well, remember blessings in disguise.


God Bless

Sunday, June 26, 2011

What I been striving for..

As my blog went on and on I had thought what was the purpose of this. And well I always hoped to inform people I had lost touch with, but my main goal with this is to show people, show YOU, that anything is possible with God. Any dream, idea, hope, desire, that you have is possible regardless of the situation your in. Today I got the best email I seriously have ever gotten to this day. I can't remember an email lifting up my spirits as this one did. There are so many kids, people, who have this same dream I have, have this same goal I have. I'm just ONE of over 10 million or more kids around the world who have the dream of playing soccer professionally. Well today I receive a random email from a boy named Nick from Budapest (the power of the internet connecting people from all over the world). He tells me he came across my blog, and he's been blogging for about 21 months, with details about his daily trials in life, his training sessions, trials with teams, and how he has NOT found success yet. But this kid is so confident, so optimistic, so sure he's going to make it. He makes me remember when I was thinking like that. He's still in search of his first professional contract but his hard work ethic, and dreams have taken him a long way already. And he is on his way I promise you this kid will have a contract offer before the end of this year, and I will post a congratulatory blog to him. But anyway he thanks me for writing, and tells me to continue pressing on, to not give up, to fight for my dreams! Nick this part is for you, as you wrote that email, you likely thought nothing of it, but let me tell you, you have reminded me of what it is to want something bad again, what it takes, the hard work, and you have lifted my spirits! Thank you Nick.

Anyways ya might be wondering why my spirits are down...Well this email comes on the brink of bad news/good news, and a very poor mistake in my game today against first place team Central Florida Kraze. 11 days ago, I caught an injury on the top of my foot, appeared to be a foot sprain, I trained right through it and would ice it occasionally after some training sessions. From there two days ago, during the game at IMG, I was on the wrong end of a bad, and wreck less tackle. This led to me injuring my foot during the game and coming off in the 40th minute.

After getting treatment on it yesterday, the trainers revealed I was definitely hurt, and should not play todays game, and I could have a fractured foot. Good news though today the doctor took a look at me, and said you have a bad ankle sprain but I can't tell you if you shouldn't play or not, only you know the degree of pain you feel, and whether or not you should play on it. I've never been the one to sit out, and never will be, that's just me. So I told coach I wanted to play and start, he said he wouldn't start me but would bring me off the bench. I wasn't too happy about it, but I'm there to support my team and hope for a win. We score a goal about 25 minutes into the game and are up 1-0. With that we go into the half.

At the start of the second half I come in and am feeling pretty good, nothing really worth noting till about the 75th minute or so, when we get another goal and are ahead 2-0! Everything is looking great, then.......the 85th minute struck. We have a great attack that leads to what SHOULD HAVE been called a PK but instead play resumed they got on our side of the pitch and won a corner kick. From the corner they win a second header wide open and smash one home. 2-1. 87th minute I lose a ball after taking tooooooooooooo many touches on our half, they quickly attack get into the box, they're player CLEARLY dives, and they get the call for a penalty kick 2-2. Then we start to press into the attack, and we have a beautiful thru ball creating a 50/50 ball with our player and their goalkeeper. There keeper completely misses the ball destroys our player INSIDE the box, but the goalie only gets a yellow card, and we get rewarded not a PK, but a free kick. Off the free kick we hit the cross bar take a shot hit the post again! Continue pressing on get a corner kick, and we couldn't capitalize and that wrapped up the game. 2-2 final.

Needless to say I was feeling hurt again, and feeling even worse for being the cause of the build up for their second goal. But luckily I'm blessed with a great family, who has always been there for me when times are hard, and things don't look good and ya wanna quit. I'm also blessed with beautiful friendships like those who always are trying to help me, from words of encouragement to, helping me with the next step in my career. Those people know who they are, and I am TRULY thankful like you guys wouldn't believe for every text message, phone call, tweet, fb message etc etc. Anyways this post is just a thankful one, for those who keep me up when I'm down. For those of you who are down, listen even if your far away from the love of your family and friends, the love of God is always just a prayer away. He's waiting for you, in fact He's waiting for me right now, I need to get into prayer and worship my God who is so good to me! Thank you heavenly father, for blessing me with all the people you continue to put into my life, and for all the things and people I already have. I am truly thankful, because I do notice you as you work on my life. I love you my God. God is love.


God Bless!!

Thursday, June 16, 2011

Blessed

Not going to recap what's been going on since my last post. But I'm blessed for having people like YOU in my life! Yeah you reading this! So blessed for the people God puts in my life whether it be a conversation on facebook, text, in person, an email. Just amazing how little things come together to such greater things.

I've done plenty wrong, and apologize to those whom I have offended and have created new friendships off of my new thought process, my new outlook on things. Treat people with smiles, with happiness you just might change there day! GOD IS LOVE. Lets reflect that everyday with everything we do yeah? Unless your playing FIFA on PS3 then show no love and woop your opponent haha...but seriously do show love at all times. I love you, whoever you are that is reading, and however you stumbled across this..But more importantly God loves you, and He will fill you, complete you like no drug, amount of alcohol, or amount of worldly pleasure can.

Okay that is all, going to bed now.

God Bless

Saturday, May 14, 2011

Jax vs Mississippi

First game of the season on the road, nice big field but it was some real hard turf I didn't like it very much but oh well. Their team was very well organized they had weak links which I felt we attacked well. But in the end we were unable to come out on top. The final score was 3-1 but the game was a lot closer than what the score shows.

The game started out I think with everyone a bit of nervousness as it was our first game as a new franchise and our first game of the season. The referee was a bit of a joke in my mind, but what can we do. They scored a goal off a counter attack that came off of our corner kick, Gonzo appeared to get fouled we got no call they countered us and just like that 36 minutes into our first game we were down 1-0. In about the 43rd minute Fries made diagonal run where him, the ball and goalkeeper all collided...The ball continued rolling along as the goalkeeper swept Fries off his feet. Referee?? No call. We went into the half down one goal..

The second half we came out very aggressive and dominated we kept attacking there goal till about the 60 some odd minute when we finally had a corner where the ball bounced in the area Gonzo hit it towards goal, deflected off of one of there defenders and into the net! 1-1.

We kept more possession of the ball and worked it up onto their side then at around the 70th minute or so we made a pretty bad mistake defensively and they capitalized and made the score 2-1 after that we went into full attack mode to try and steal a point on the road, instead in stoppage time in about the 93rd minute they hit a thru ball and got their third goal on a break away and that was that.

On a positive note I love the way our team responded after being down 1-0 at halftime, and it was our first game together ever, so I expect good things in our next game and for the season. The player of the game for me was Doug Parra making a ton of saves, very impressive. Now were in Nashville and we kick off tomorrow at 7pm good luck to us. We miss you guys back at Jacksonville and can't wait for this Thursdays home opener but first we need to tackle this game and go back home with 3 points!


God Bless

Wednesday, May 11, 2011

First 48

I promised a few people I'd blog especially Allie so here I go! A lot of exciting stuff has been going on since arriving Monday. Let's start off with Monday, I had a nice family going away breakfast, while celebrating my little brothers 14th birthday, it was really cool I enjoyed everyones company who was there and was sad/excited to leave on my little brothers birthday for obvious reasons. Anyways if you everrrrrrrrrrrrrr have the option of driving alone or with someone for more than 2 hours choose with someone, on my 4 1/2 hour drive from Miami to Jacksonville it was extremely boring I literally entertained myself by singing along to all the different types of music I had on my iPod. I gotta admit I'm gonna be trying out for American Idol when it comes around, haa.

So upon my arrival to Jacksonville, I got ready for my first training session with the team we are still missing something like 4-6 players I think, but the majority of the group is here and at first glance we have a pretty solid team that I'm excited to be apart of. I think the most exciting part of being with the Jax Destroyers is the community and how they are so involved with getting our name out there, and getting us support. This community up here seems like it just filled with such great spirited, positive, heart warming people. It's really a pleasure to be apart of this team, and it's got the feeling of maybe something special being able to come out of this season despite being a new team in PDL. I don't really know the level of competition in PDL so I can't really speak much of where our team would rank or anything. I really do love the professionalism that this club has from its board members, coaches, trainers, and training sessions. Coach Eric Dutt and his staff seem to be doing a wonderful job, and I'm really liking how things are shaping out through two days. A little premature, but at least were off on the right foot.

I have been immensely blessed with my living arrangement!! It's really crazy to me, how one of the women on the board Susan Pitman accepted to take me into her home, and live with her and her family. It is her, her husband, their two sons of age 15, and 17 and a dog and a cat. They have given me my own room, have allowed me to eat their food, use their bathrooms, TVs, everything whatever I need. It's crazy they basically took a stranger and allowed them to live with them. As we got to know each other over the past two days, I have learned they are Christians, and are fully devoted. I mean seriously, do you reallyyyyyyyyyyy think that's a coincidence? I sure don't, I know God does things His way for His reason, I can already feel my faith being strengthened by just being around them. Such a great and positive family, they have been more than gracious with me and I can't thank God enough.

I'm gonna cut this blog off here, but things have just been going awesome all around, I really can't complain. God has blessed me with favor, grace, and just continues to bless me with great situations! I'm looking forward to season filled with Gods glory! I'm off to an interview with Web.com to try and hopefully get a summer job which will be exciting :) We travel tomorrow to Mississippi to play the defending southeastern region champs, it ain't no thang though, we got a good team , and I look forward to pulling out a good result! Also if your on facebook go like the "Jax Destroyers" page and show support, thanks guys! This wasn't proofread so bear with me!


God Bless!

Tuesday, May 3, 2011

Pensive...

I feel jotting some shi* down...

Anyways April 15th official signing to PDL Jax Destroyers.

Lotta feelings going thru me at this point in time and for the last couple of weeks, a lot decisions that I question and requestion if that's even a word.

Parents are in Europe have been there for almost two weeks they get back Cinco de Mayo.

Osama Bin Laden is dead, but it's not news to me...the media chooses what we hear, and what we don't.. What do I care for, same corrupt people running our government.

Looking forward to this summer, a nice getaway and just soccer everyday, God has given me a second chance to prove myself to be able to handle myself on my own, and succeed for His glory. I guess time will tell if I do my part this time around.

Temptation is a bit**

Enough....


God Bless..