Sucks I haven't even had this blog so long, and I've lost two friends who never got to even see the ripe age of 20. The thing with death is, it's unexpected, it's painful, it leaves you asking many many questions. I've come to understand to not understand why death, why young, why him/her. We can't question Gods choosing, we can't attempt to comprehend it either or else we'll fight with our mind the rest of our lives attempting to figure out an answerless question. We just have to accept what's happened, and try to move on. Yes, much easier said than done. And yes, much easier for me as I wasn't as close to him as let's say his family, his click of friends "NFU" or his girlfriend my condolences to all of you. Trust me I've prayed, and hope you guys will be good, I know you guys are good, what sucks is I read constantly over Facebook your guys strong faith in comments. But sometimes it's just Gods way of doing things. Let's just accept it, and be happy that he gets to rest in peace and be in the heavens. I promise you he's not that far away, just look up to the skies he's looking right back at you with a big smile. C'mon lets be real that kid always had a smile, and always had a good time you know he wouldn't want you any different now besides with a big smile, and possibly a shot glass. Haha God bless you Andy, your family, your girlfriend, your friends, and were smiling up while you smile down at us.
God bless & RIP Andy Parreno!!
Tuesday, August 31, 2010
Saturday, August 28, 2010
Rejuvenated!
My spirit and need to write has been rejuvenated!! First off cause I'm back in Brazil and you guys know last time I was here it can get boring with so much free time, but the other reason is thanks to fellow teammate back in Miami FC Chris Gbandi! I started reading his blog which you can follow @ www.cgbandi.blogspot.com and it's just inspired me to write, this time not so much as to only about soccer, but quite frankly just whatever I feel like writing about.
Well to start out I'd like to thank all the wonderful people in Miami who I met this summer, and hung out with for making it an unforgettable one, and the way my summer ended was just perfect. Meeting someone great, and coming back to Brazil for a trial with the team I was with last year. God willing it all goes well I'll be staying here, although there is definitely no place like home, and the people that reside there.
Anyways I hope to continue to write a lot more often as I used to, it's really something that I love to do but in Miami they're just so many distractions, and always something to do that I never got around to it. I'd like to begin my return to writing with another website of someone else who has inspired me! She really is an amazing person, and has such a big heart one of her loves is saving dogs and finding foster homes for them. It's really not all that easy though, and sometimes the dogs have to be put to sleep cause they're is no room for them anymore. So I encourage you to save a dog today, or tell your friends, I'm sure everyoneeeeeeee knows someone that wants a dog, well tell them to look no further and go to this website!
http://www.saveadeathrowdog.org/rescue_adopt_dog_puppy_dogs_miami_fort_lauderdale_west_palm_beach_boca_raton_available_pups.html
I hope you guys take an interest in this, and try to make a change, that's something I actually want to rant about. People being so self centered and not willing to help those around you. I mean did we forget that when there is a granny at a street light we should offer them help in crossing the street? I'm not counting myself out on this one, I mean there sure are times where I get selfish, but at least take the time to notice it and try to make a change. I mean must we ignore and be completely rude to a "bum" instead of being polite and telling them "No I'm sorry". They're people to you know, and in fact one of my friends recently told me how she met a bum, and gave up her Friday night, to meet him up in South Beach at his "corner" and celebrate his birthday with just some food and conversation. Unfortunately the bum didn't show up, but it's besides the point. She told me how she just took some of her time one night, to have a random conversation with him, and it led to a random friendship, the bum isn't begging for food or money from her all he wanted was someone to talk to. They be the change you want to see in the world, but I don't see enough people doing that. All it takes is one person starting it maybe you pick up a beer can that was left on the beach, maybe you wait a couple seconds to hold the door open for someone with a smile, it's the smallest gestures that get people thinking, and refresh their minds that this life is more than just money, cars, & fame as stereotypes have led us to believe. So to reiterate what I already stated....BE THE CHANGE YOU WANT TO SEE IN THE WORLD!
God Bless!
Well to start out I'd like to thank all the wonderful people in Miami who I met this summer, and hung out with for making it an unforgettable one, and the way my summer ended was just perfect. Meeting someone great, and coming back to Brazil for a trial with the team I was with last year. God willing it all goes well I'll be staying here, although there is definitely no place like home, and the people that reside there.
Anyways I hope to continue to write a lot more often as I used to, it's really something that I love to do but in Miami they're just so many distractions, and always something to do that I never got around to it. I'd like to begin my return to writing with another website of someone else who has inspired me! She really is an amazing person, and has such a big heart one of her loves is saving dogs and finding foster homes for them. It's really not all that easy though, and sometimes the dogs have to be put to sleep cause they're is no room for them anymore. So I encourage you to save a dog today, or tell your friends, I'm sure everyoneeeeeeee knows someone that wants a dog, well tell them to look no further and go to this website!
http://www.saveadeathrowdog.org/rescue_adopt_dog_puppy_dogs_miami_fort_lauderdale_west_palm_beach_boca_raton_available_pups.html
I hope you guys take an interest in this, and try to make a change, that's something I actually want to rant about. People being so self centered and not willing to help those around you. I mean did we forget that when there is a granny at a street light we should offer them help in crossing the street? I'm not counting myself out on this one, I mean there sure are times where I get selfish, but at least take the time to notice it and try to make a change. I mean must we ignore and be completely rude to a "bum" instead of being polite and telling them "No I'm sorry". They're people to you know, and in fact one of my friends recently told me how she met a bum, and gave up her Friday night, to meet him up in South Beach at his "corner" and celebrate his birthday with just some food and conversation. Unfortunately the bum didn't show up, but it's besides the point. She told me how she just took some of her time one night, to have a random conversation with him, and it led to a random friendship, the bum isn't begging for food or money from her all he wanted was someone to talk to. They be the change you want to see in the world, but I don't see enough people doing that. All it takes is one person starting it maybe you pick up a beer can that was left on the beach, maybe you wait a couple seconds to hold the door open for someone with a smile, it's the smallest gestures that get people thinking, and refresh their minds that this life is more than just money, cars, & fame as stereotypes have led us to believe. So to reiterate what I already stated....BE THE CHANGE YOU WANT TO SEE IN THE WORLD!
God Bless!
Sunday, May 2, 2010
Learning!
Although I'm not in school, thanks to my wonderful blessing of being able to play soccer :) I've probably learned more valuable things through life experiences than I could have through school. I won't get into to much detail about it, but let's just say I'm smarter now when it comes to many things with my life. Anyways, I know most of the people that follow this blog are soccer followers so an update on how my soccer career is turning out well I'm currently playing on Miami FC as probably one of the youngest players there, and a month into the season have yet to dress up for a regular season match, although I have been playing in the reserve matches. It's pretty tough you know, I'm playing with grown men, who have wife, kids, families, etc. So as bad as I want this, they also have they're motivation in their families etc. My motivation is God, and giving Him glory. I'd like to thank Steven Jennings a friend of mine, who is not ashamed to let you know how he feels, and he helped me out to better my life, and I'm proud to say that I'm taking baby steps but definitely making the changes I need to move forward in my life. I'm not going to be tied down by stupid immature things, or people who can't look past what's the next big party, no offense to my friends, I know your not all like that, but some do just look for the next party, and don't quite have a future or plan figured out. Again I have nothing against that, it's just in my opinion to get where I want to be I have to learn to leave, and sacrifice certain things in my past that I once enjoyed.
I've been training very hard, and have begun doing some personal training, I'm going to get into shape my boy Joey Tames, watch how I'm gonna have him looking ladies so be careful in a couple weeks, he's gonna have some confidence and swag that's gonna kill ya! Haa, I usually don't mention so many names in my blog, but this time around I feel like these names, kind of deserve recognition. My non related sister Jennifer Andrade! I love this girl, we don't talk as often, but when we do we catch up on stuff, and always support each other, she also has her own blog, and motivated me to start writing again. I missed it, writing like this gives me perspective, and let's me analyze my ideas, thoughts, and what I plan on doing.
What do I plan on doing? Training everyday, and enjoying my life, with those who want to enjoy it with me. One of the most important things I learned in my break of writing is don't take people for granted, sometimes you may not notice it, but even those who are closest to you, you may be taking for granted. Enjoy every day, and every second, that you have with someone cause it may be your last.
I don't want to end my first blog post like that, so I'll end it with a shout out to all my ladies who know how to treat a man good and hang on to them, you GIRLS are speciallll :)
Cheers peoples I'm backkkkkkkk.
&
God Bless
I've been training very hard, and have begun doing some personal training, I'm going to get into shape my boy Joey Tames, watch how I'm gonna have him looking ladies so be careful in a couple weeks, he's gonna have some confidence and swag that's gonna kill ya! Haa, I usually don't mention so many names in my blog, but this time around I feel like these names, kind of deserve recognition. My non related sister Jennifer Andrade! I love this girl, we don't talk as often, but when we do we catch up on stuff, and always support each other, she also has her own blog, and motivated me to start writing again. I missed it, writing like this gives me perspective, and let's me analyze my ideas, thoughts, and what I plan on doing.
What do I plan on doing? Training everyday, and enjoying my life, with those who want to enjoy it with me. One of the most important things I learned in my break of writing is don't take people for granted, sometimes you may not notice it, but even those who are closest to you, you may be taking for granted. Enjoy every day, and every second, that you have with someone cause it may be your last.
I don't want to end my first blog post like that, so I'll end it with a shout out to all my ladies who know how to treat a man good and hang on to them, you GIRLS are speciallll :)
Cheers peoples I'm backkkkkkkk.
&
God Bless
Friday, March 26, 2010
Attempt...
I'm going to attempt to continue blogging. I remember blogging last year about every game during Dallas Cup, so this year as I finish up packing for Dallas Cup I thought I will give this another shot. No promises though. My life ; it's the name of the blog, but I think as I'm growing, and my career gets more publicity, I think it'll be better if we turn this blog into just maybe a soccer blog. I used to write in here as if it were a diary, from family problems, girl problems, life problems, and although I enjoy writing and it allows me to step out and reflect on myself I think I've learned to do this with only the people who need to know about it. I just don't want to be so public about my personal stuff anymore, so forgive me if it's not as insightful and deep anymore but that's just the way I feel. 2010 ; I've made new friends, close friends, enemies, haters, and learned a lot so far. It's been a good progressive couple of months in my life, in all aspects of it. I hope I can take in all that I'm learning from observing people, observing my own actions, listening to family members, and staying close to God. I hope in 2010 to achieve the goals underneath. My goals will be big, but it's true something my brother says. Why dream of something small, for that don't dream at all, you got to dream big and the good life. These goals will hit all the aspects of my life, some a bit personal, but the difference is I won't go into detail about them, I'll simply say if I achieved them or not.
Travel to somewhere new, that I haven't been, Curucao didn't count, I want to go somewhere else.
Weigh at least 175LBs and it be more muscle no fat!
Establish myself as a starter on a team this year.
Go on a retreat for a weekend with my church back home.
Pray, and find time for church when I'm on "vacation" back in Miami
Teach someone how to pray.
Make 5k in poker for the year.
Learn at least somethings about how to run my dads business.
Get a tattoo ( this is still a maybe )
I feel like I should have more, but this will do for now. I hope to accomplish all of this. But with God's help there is NO doubt in my mind. Don't take it as cocky, take it as I'm a confident kid, with faith in the man upstairs :)
God Bless
Travel to somewhere new, that I haven't been, Curucao didn't count, I want to go somewhere else.
Weigh at least 175LBs and it be more muscle no fat!
Establish myself as a starter on a team this year.
Go on a retreat for a weekend with my church back home.
Pray, and find time for church when I'm on "vacation" back in Miami
Teach someone how to pray.
Make 5k in poker for the year.
Learn at least somethings about how to run my dads business.
Get a tattoo ( this is still a maybe )
I feel like I should have more, but this will do for now. I hope to accomplish all of this. But with God's help there is NO doubt in my mind. Don't take it as cocky, take it as I'm a confident kid, with faith in the man upstairs :)
God Bless
Thursday, February 4, 2010
Miami/Curucao/Argentina..
Interesting how life changes whether it be over the course of a couple years, months, days, minutes even seconds. I've had life changing moments, in all of the timeframes I've given. I know,I know, I haven't blogged in forever, but it's hard to keep up blogging when in Miami, when there is so much stuff to do, and people to see. I hope that doesn't come off cocky or anything, it's just the truth. Anyways my time in Miami was well spent depending from what angle you look at it....I've always said in this blog I would be honest in my mistakes, and in my successes because well I want to have this to look back on, and I don't want lies in this. But anyways back to Miami.
I was coming to Miami with high expectations, excited, and a mindset, that was to enjoy my time, while working hard. My last entry said my flight was suppose to be at 10:50PM my flight unfortunately didn't depart till about 1:20AM causing me to get to Miami at near 8:00AM with the time change and all. At the airport I was welcomed with smiles, and hugs from my family except my youngest brother. It was wonderful and I did get that "no place like home feeling" even if I was at the airport, it was just holding those that I love most in my arms again...Miami oh Miami...well it was Holiday Season so leading up to Christmas it was pretty busy for me buying gifts, wrapping, and doing a bit of playing soccer. Coming up to Christmas it was brought to my understanding that I was going to play for Huracan U20 (Arg) or Tigres (Mex) those were my two options. That stayed true throughout the new year, and into 2010. New Years day, was one probably the most calmest New Year I've ever had, but it was cause we were leaving the next day to the beautiful island of Curucao. Again it was just my family and I a nice get away together. We ATV'd, enjoyed the pool, beach, drinks, ping pong, casinos, volleyball, canoeing, everything that it offered we did! It was a wonderful time, and we even met some pretty cool people along the way.
When I got back I decided to start playing some soccer again, but my agency had advised me to not play, for fear of me getting injured. I abided and would only play some small sided games with some good friends. So with my free time, while my parents were at work, I would meet with old friends, girlfriend, and hang out with my brothers. I even visited my school and watched my old high school soccer team play. Sucks they've lost a lot of players to transfers but kudos to the head coach Kevin Myers working with what he has and sort of rebuilding I guess you could say. Anyways again not much soccer was being played for me, so I kept busy with my family, and friends and did quite a bit of partying, more than I'm used to, and I enjoyed it I met new friends, had lots of fun, and enjoyed my vacation. Still I was hungryyyyy to get back to soccer already so I had made my choice. I decided I wanted to go play for Huracan U20 (Arg) so I spoke to my representatives and informed them of my thoughts. They said wonderful and I thought that was that. I was set to leave the 19th or so I thought. The 15th came around or a day near that, and the decision for Huracan was no longer an option. However Argentino Juniors U20 (Arg) became available. I was still happy to be dealing with a first division team. A meeting was set for us to speak out the details of the deal. We went in and addressed the issues that we could come across, and gave opinionated answers towards each others questions. Although most of my questions were left unanswered, as it seems they didn't know the details of what was going to happen. As I had understood I was coming over here for a year on loan. But clearly that was far from being the actual fact. Anyways after much, delay and talking about me leaving, the 23rd and 25th, they finally got Bryan Dominguez, and I out to of the country flying the 28th and arriving the 29th in the morning to be picked up by Fernando Claviho.
9:00AM we finally touched down in Buenos Aires, Argentina it was an exciting feeling for me, I had been dying to get back out on the soccer field and start playing, and for me I was taking this as a critical year for me in my young soccer career. We arrived here Thursday of last week, the U20's were still out on preseason training so we were set to train on our own until Monday. Thursday we head to our hotel, get changed and hit the city for lunch. After we rested and were told that the next day we'd be moving hotels...So the next morning came, and Sergio (Fernando's friend) picked us up and moved our luggage, they would be staying somewhere else, and we were suppose to run everyday on our own. As for food, we had a restaurant where our food was paid for. We trained and then Monday came, and Fernando had to leave, he kind of left Sergio to take care of us considering he lives nearby and we had met him, and gotten along fine. So Monday came around, and we were NOT training as team was going to start Tuesday so another day waiting. Next day we up and ready for training everything was all set we got there thanks to Sergio, and were ready to train, we were told training was at 8:00AM but it didn't start till 9:30AM, which apparently is the regular time for training every day....We did look sort of lost in the crowd unsure of where to go, things seemed disorganized, and that's probably cause they were, due to sloppy planning. Anyways finally 9:30AM rolled around we were told who we were going to train with, and we did so accordingly. I started out doing mostly fitness, which thank God I trained a couple days before cause it did me some good, and I was at the front of the pack the whole time. After that we did a small sided game, did okay, and from there we had a 45 minute scrimmage, again I felt I played fine without much error. During the game, I had made a kicking attempt for the ball, and when I did the kids cleat came up and my ankle went straight into it. Ouch! I played through it as I didn't think anything of it, however after training we went to have lunch and when I attempted to get out of the car, and I then felt the pain! Sergio advised me to put ice on it, which I did. After I got to the hotel I was barely being able to walk normally. I was in too much pain. Worried, I called Sergio, and asked him what I should do, he told me to skip tomorrow's training session and stay at the hotel and remain off my foot. I did so and requested ice from the front desk, as well as keeping it elevated.
The next morning I was unable to walk pretty much, there was way too much pain, so I took Sergio's advice and missed the training session iced it, and then later on took a cab to the pharmacy got painkillers, ankle wrap, and an ankle brace, to maintain it still. I was starting to feel better almost immediately. Bryan got home pretty early from training, as apparently it was cancelled due to the rain. So I caught a break I guess, or again so I thought. Thursday (today) came around and it was back to training I woke up feeling reenergized as I felt pain free, and was ready to get back out there. Today we were escorted by another Fernando, whom it was my first time meeting, a nice man and took us there, and had a driver sent to pick us up after training. At the training ground I got changed and was ready to run. We did more fitness to start off, and again I stayed upfront. After that we went into a 3 station training. You would run for about 10-15 minutes have a 2 minute break, then play small sided game with 2 touches for 10-15 minutes followed by a two minute break, and have a technical session for 10-15 minutes and then rest another two minutes we did two sets. I was pretty tired after all this but felt good about my performance during training. Once arriving at the hotel, I received a call from my representative back in Miami. And he said that after a two day evaluation (yeah two days) they weren't interested in me, mainly for missing Wednesday's training session although it was cancelled. Now I understand the importance of missing a training session, and even more so when your a brand new player, but I guess I wasn't thinking straight and was just following the directions that Sergio gave me. Anyways due to this, they don't want me as a player as they feel I'm not hungry for soccer. Sighhh, this was so disappointing to hear, as I was excited for a new team, new level, new coaches, and new players. But it seems as due to me missing that training session that won't be happening anytime soon. What I'm trying to say is that I'm flying back to Miami in the next week, to reevaluate my options now for 2010, I'm hoping to look into Tigres again, and if not then I may have to settle possibly for Miami FC if even that. God knows my plans, and knows what He is doing. Maybe if this Tigres gig works out, then maybe that's where I was suppose to go from square one. Again, only God knows I guess. I will pray about it, and hope to get an answer soon. All I know is that I WONT BE MISSING A TRAINING SESSION EVEN IF I'M DYING! Ugh forgive me, for I am frustrated, I know I represent a company, and when they look bad given my actions I really beat my self up about it. I like to be a role model, not the example of something bad, but of something good. So when I get back to Miami, friends shall be secondary as I get back to training while I await my next move for 2010. I can only hope, and pray for God to guide my path in the right direction this time around. I'll leave you guys with something I read in my inbox just a few seconds ago....
Don't put a question mark, where God puts a period.
God bless!
I was coming to Miami with high expectations, excited, and a mindset, that was to enjoy my time, while working hard. My last entry said my flight was suppose to be at 10:50PM my flight unfortunately didn't depart till about 1:20AM causing me to get to Miami at near 8:00AM with the time change and all. At the airport I was welcomed with smiles, and hugs from my family except my youngest brother. It was wonderful and I did get that "no place like home feeling" even if I was at the airport, it was just holding those that I love most in my arms again...Miami oh Miami...well it was Holiday Season so leading up to Christmas it was pretty busy for me buying gifts, wrapping, and doing a bit of playing soccer. Coming up to Christmas it was brought to my understanding that I was going to play for Huracan U20 (Arg) or Tigres (Mex) those were my two options. That stayed true throughout the new year, and into 2010. New Years day, was one probably the most calmest New Year I've ever had, but it was cause we were leaving the next day to the beautiful island of Curucao. Again it was just my family and I a nice get away together. We ATV'd, enjoyed the pool, beach, drinks, ping pong, casinos, volleyball, canoeing, everything that it offered we did! It was a wonderful time, and we even met some pretty cool people along the way.
When I got back I decided to start playing some soccer again, but my agency had advised me to not play, for fear of me getting injured. I abided and would only play some small sided games with some good friends. So with my free time, while my parents were at work, I would meet with old friends, girlfriend, and hang out with my brothers. I even visited my school and watched my old high school soccer team play. Sucks they've lost a lot of players to transfers but kudos to the head coach Kevin Myers working with what he has and sort of rebuilding I guess you could say. Anyways again not much soccer was being played for me, so I kept busy with my family, and friends and did quite a bit of partying, more than I'm used to, and I enjoyed it I met new friends, had lots of fun, and enjoyed my vacation. Still I was hungryyyyy to get back to soccer already so I had made my choice. I decided I wanted to go play for Huracan U20 (Arg) so I spoke to my representatives and informed them of my thoughts. They said wonderful and I thought that was that. I was set to leave the 19th or so I thought. The 15th came around or a day near that, and the decision for Huracan was no longer an option. However Argentino Juniors U20 (Arg) became available. I was still happy to be dealing with a first division team. A meeting was set for us to speak out the details of the deal. We went in and addressed the issues that we could come across, and gave opinionated answers towards each others questions. Although most of my questions were left unanswered, as it seems they didn't know the details of what was going to happen. As I had understood I was coming over here for a year on loan. But clearly that was far from being the actual fact. Anyways after much, delay and talking about me leaving, the 23rd and 25th, they finally got Bryan Dominguez, and I out to of the country flying the 28th and arriving the 29th in the morning to be picked up by Fernando Claviho.
9:00AM we finally touched down in Buenos Aires, Argentina it was an exciting feeling for me, I had been dying to get back out on the soccer field and start playing, and for me I was taking this as a critical year for me in my young soccer career. We arrived here Thursday of last week, the U20's were still out on preseason training so we were set to train on our own until Monday. Thursday we head to our hotel, get changed and hit the city for lunch. After we rested and were told that the next day we'd be moving hotels...So the next morning came, and Sergio (Fernando's friend) picked us up and moved our luggage, they would be staying somewhere else, and we were suppose to run everyday on our own. As for food, we had a restaurant where our food was paid for. We trained and then Monday came, and Fernando had to leave, he kind of left Sergio to take care of us considering he lives nearby and we had met him, and gotten along fine. So Monday came around, and we were NOT training as team was going to start Tuesday so another day waiting. Next day we up and ready for training everything was all set we got there thanks to Sergio, and were ready to train, we were told training was at 8:00AM but it didn't start till 9:30AM, which apparently is the regular time for training every day....We did look sort of lost in the crowd unsure of where to go, things seemed disorganized, and that's probably cause they were, due to sloppy planning. Anyways finally 9:30AM rolled around we were told who we were going to train with, and we did so accordingly. I started out doing mostly fitness, which thank God I trained a couple days before cause it did me some good, and I was at the front of the pack the whole time. After that we did a small sided game, did okay, and from there we had a 45 minute scrimmage, again I felt I played fine without much error. During the game, I had made a kicking attempt for the ball, and when I did the kids cleat came up and my ankle went straight into it. Ouch! I played through it as I didn't think anything of it, however after training we went to have lunch and when I attempted to get out of the car, and I then felt the pain! Sergio advised me to put ice on it, which I did. After I got to the hotel I was barely being able to walk normally. I was in too much pain. Worried, I called Sergio, and asked him what I should do, he told me to skip tomorrow's training session and stay at the hotel and remain off my foot. I did so and requested ice from the front desk, as well as keeping it elevated.
The next morning I was unable to walk pretty much, there was way too much pain, so I took Sergio's advice and missed the training session iced it, and then later on took a cab to the pharmacy got painkillers, ankle wrap, and an ankle brace, to maintain it still. I was starting to feel better almost immediately. Bryan got home pretty early from training, as apparently it was cancelled due to the rain. So I caught a break I guess, or again so I thought. Thursday (today) came around and it was back to training I woke up feeling reenergized as I felt pain free, and was ready to get back out there. Today we were escorted by another Fernando, whom it was my first time meeting, a nice man and took us there, and had a driver sent to pick us up after training. At the training ground I got changed and was ready to run. We did more fitness to start off, and again I stayed upfront. After that we went into a 3 station training. You would run for about 10-15 minutes have a 2 minute break, then play small sided game with 2 touches for 10-15 minutes followed by a two minute break, and have a technical session for 10-15 minutes and then rest another two minutes we did two sets. I was pretty tired after all this but felt good about my performance during training. Once arriving at the hotel, I received a call from my representative back in Miami. And he said that after a two day evaluation (yeah two days) they weren't interested in me, mainly for missing Wednesday's training session although it was cancelled. Now I understand the importance of missing a training session, and even more so when your a brand new player, but I guess I wasn't thinking straight and was just following the directions that Sergio gave me. Anyways due to this, they don't want me as a player as they feel I'm not hungry for soccer. Sighhh, this was so disappointing to hear, as I was excited for a new team, new level, new coaches, and new players. But it seems as due to me missing that training session that won't be happening anytime soon. What I'm trying to say is that I'm flying back to Miami in the next week, to reevaluate my options now for 2010, I'm hoping to look into Tigres again, and if not then I may have to settle possibly for Miami FC if even that. God knows my plans, and knows what He is doing. Maybe if this Tigres gig works out, then maybe that's where I was suppose to go from square one. Again, only God knows I guess. I will pray about it, and hope to get an answer soon. All I know is that I WONT BE MISSING A TRAINING SESSION EVEN IF I'M DYING! Ugh forgive me, for I am frustrated, I know I represent a company, and when they look bad given my actions I really beat my self up about it. I like to be a role model, not the example of something bad, but of something good. So when I get back to Miami, friends shall be secondary as I get back to training while I await my next move for 2010. I can only hope, and pray for God to guide my path in the right direction this time around. I'll leave you guys with something I read in my inbox just a few seconds ago....
Don't put a question mark, where God puts a period.
God bless!
Sunday, December 13, 2009
Homeee Sweeet Homeeee
Chillen alas at the airport....Geez what a day, last night was near impossible to fall to sleep, with the anxiety I had to leave, and today I woke up at 11:00AM figuring since my flight leaves at 11:55PM and were about 2 hours away from the airport I'd be leaving around 5ish....BUT it turns out as I went to go have lunch downstairs (slept right through breakfast) they told me be ready to leave by 1:30PM?!?! The reason being Bryan has to be at the airport by 3-4 for his flight that leaves at 7, and I guess they weren't going to make two trips so I had to go. Also going with us was LiuLiu probably one of the best soccer players out of the 100+ that lived where we did, he is currently off to Belgium to try out, if he makes it then stay there for three 3 years get his European passport then, if God allows him compete in the biggest leagues in Europe. As for Bryan he goes from here to Rio De Janeiro, then from there to Miami, then from there cross country to LA...So I guess I shouldn't be so bummed that I have to wait this long for my flight when he has to fly from point a to b etc etc. Nonetheless I doubt I'll be seeing him again as we go our separate ways, he's off to Argentina in January, and I wish him the best of luck, and may he excel! As for me my future is still undecided, when I get back home I will meet with Muzzi, and Claviho, and speak with them and ask of course for their guidance as to where my future will be in January. I suck at writing, I go off topic so much as I write hehe, well ok so back to my day, I had to rush out get showered, say my good byes, (I realized I suck at these when I know I most likely won't see the person again) and get out the door. Luckily I had enough time to do everything, then it was off to the airport a long ride, in a packed car with all our luggage. A little over an hour and half into the trip, LiuLiu realizes his mom gave him his work permit (looks just like the Brazilian passport) and not his passport! So he called his mom but her phone seemed off he tried to call again 20 minutes later, and got through and the mom had to rush to the airport I'm not sure if she made it in time, my guess is she did....hopefully. So there was already some stress vibes flowing through the car then, about 15 minutes away from the airport our driver is forced to hit the brakes real hard, we come an inchhhhh form hitting the car in front of us, whewwww....2 seconds later the car behind us hits us! I bumped my head on the roof, but no real damage was done to any of us, as for the cars neither one would work again, so were forced to pull over on the highway, on the shoulder. From there we attempt to hail a cab, by random yelling and waving, this didn't go so well for about 25 minutes, then it began to rain......Everyone felt like it just wasn't meant for us to fly out of this country! Nonetheless we miraculously hailed a cab, and LiuLiu, Bryan, and I got to the airport finally safely. I'm happy to finally be here at the airport but ugh, I have to wait like 6 hours till I fly out of here...but I don't mind, the reward is I get too see my family again and get to spend the Holidays, and New Year with them and that's a blessing in it self.
As I leave Brazil I kind of miss it already, I know i nagged, and bugged out about how boring this place was. How hot it was. How the language barrier made it tough to go out and have a good time. But nonetheless I made friendships, I learned to be independent, I got closer to God, I altered my life, to a full soccer life. I became accustomed to that lifestyle, and I thank God I was able to spend 6 months over here, to not only improve in my soccer ability, but to be more prepared for life, I'm much more independent, I'm closer to God, and I've learned to become more responsible with my things. There are certain lessons in life in which you can't be taught them but only experience them, and I like to think I have experienced a lot out here, and learned a lot. I'm more wiser, and I've lived in a different culture, learned a new language, gotten closer to God, and gained independence. In 2010 I want to gain more independence and learn how to cook, I think if I ever live alone, I would like too cook, and not have to buy gourmet meals, from restaurants every night. I'm not saying I learned that in Brazil shoot, in Brazil I had it good, I had a buffet to pick from whether it was breakfast, lunch, or dinner. Easy life it was haha. But that would be something nice to learn how to do. I'm getting home at 5am, but I will have my mom, dad, and 3 brothers waiting for me, and they're more than I need. I miss em all so much, but soon we'll be together :) .
When I get there, I'll probably sleep then wake up for church, and just spend the day at my house with family, and friends, those who love me you know? Thinking about it puts a smile on my face. Some people probably think damn this kid is too stuck to his family, he won't make it alone. That's not the thing though, I can live alone, I don't have a problem with that, I mean I was brave enough to sign a contract to go to a country where I didn't speak the language and knew my parents wouldn't probably be able to visit, when I could've signed with a mexican team, where they speak my language and it becomes easier to visit, but that wasn't what was best for me, and God put that in my heart. The thing is my family has always been number one in my life, my brothers are my best friends, my mom is never not there for me, no matter what she finds time for me, I remember times I would walk through the door with a regular face on, and she could sense something was wrong with me, heh I guess that's the gift moms have. My dad wakes up everyday at 7:00AM and doesn't stop working sometimes barely eats till 2:00AM wakes up the next day and does it again, this includes weekends, and somehow he still finds the time, to give time to his family, take us shopping, takes us on vacations, he's the best father in the world. Maybe he works a little to hard, but one day I hope to make enough money playing soccer, for my parents can kick back and relax on a beach somewhere in paradise....
It's 6:32PM and boarding time is not till 10:50PM not sure what I will do I'm kind of sleepy, but I don't want too sleep yet I want to sleep on the plane although I've never been able to sleep on a plane for like over an hour...Whatever, I'll see what I do around here, SEE YOU IN MIAMI, theeeee best citayyyyyy in theeee worldddddd!!! :) Ciao all.
God Bless
As I leave Brazil I kind of miss it already, I know i nagged, and bugged out about how boring this place was. How hot it was. How the language barrier made it tough to go out and have a good time. But nonetheless I made friendships, I learned to be independent, I got closer to God, I altered my life, to a full soccer life. I became accustomed to that lifestyle, and I thank God I was able to spend 6 months over here, to not only improve in my soccer ability, but to be more prepared for life, I'm much more independent, I'm closer to God, and I've learned to become more responsible with my things. There are certain lessons in life in which you can't be taught them but only experience them, and I like to think I have experienced a lot out here, and learned a lot. I'm more wiser, and I've lived in a different culture, learned a new language, gotten closer to God, and gained independence. In 2010 I want to gain more independence and learn how to cook, I think if I ever live alone, I would like too cook, and not have to buy gourmet meals, from restaurants every night. I'm not saying I learned that in Brazil shoot, in Brazil I had it good, I had a buffet to pick from whether it was breakfast, lunch, or dinner. Easy life it was haha. But that would be something nice to learn how to do. I'm getting home at 5am, but I will have my mom, dad, and 3 brothers waiting for me, and they're more than I need. I miss em all so much, but soon we'll be together :) .
When I get there, I'll probably sleep then wake up for church, and just spend the day at my house with family, and friends, those who love me you know? Thinking about it puts a smile on my face. Some people probably think damn this kid is too stuck to his family, he won't make it alone. That's not the thing though, I can live alone, I don't have a problem with that, I mean I was brave enough to sign a contract to go to a country where I didn't speak the language and knew my parents wouldn't probably be able to visit, when I could've signed with a mexican team, where they speak my language and it becomes easier to visit, but that wasn't what was best for me, and God put that in my heart. The thing is my family has always been number one in my life, my brothers are my best friends, my mom is never not there for me, no matter what she finds time for me, I remember times I would walk through the door with a regular face on, and she could sense something was wrong with me, heh I guess that's the gift moms have. My dad wakes up everyday at 7:00AM and doesn't stop working sometimes barely eats till 2:00AM wakes up the next day and does it again, this includes weekends, and somehow he still finds the time, to give time to his family, take us shopping, takes us on vacations, he's the best father in the world. Maybe he works a little to hard, but one day I hope to make enough money playing soccer, for my parents can kick back and relax on a beach somewhere in paradise....
It's 6:32PM and boarding time is not till 10:50PM not sure what I will do I'm kind of sleepy, but I don't want too sleep yet I want to sleep on the plane although I've never been able to sleep on a plane for like over an hour...Whatever, I'll see what I do around here, SEE YOU IN MIAMI, theeeee best citayyyyyy in theeee worldddddd!!! :) Ciao all.
God Bless
Thursday, December 3, 2009
Reminiscing....
I was reading through some old posts, and wow how this blog has developed! I wanna show you guys my first ever post, and kind of where I am now from that. Here is my 1st ever blog post....
Well I've always wanted my own blog...so here I am! Lol uhm I'm 18 years old, and right now in my life I have certain goals that I'm trying to attain.
Number 1: I would like to closer my relationship with the Lord.
Number 2: I want to get a full ride for soccer to University.
Number 3: Graduate, finishing good in school.
Number 4: Really maximize my potential in soccer.
Number 5: Stay close with my family & my girlfriend somewhat Meme..
Number 6: Make alot of money from poker.
As of now my relationship with the Lord is meh. Not fabulous I really want to get a fire for him again like I did when I was younger. So def. need to work on that.
My full ride for soccer is working out really well I'm currently talking to 4 schools, University Of Albany, University Of St.Johns, University Of Jacksonville, and Coastal Carolina University.
Graduate finishing good in school is alright im doing okay decent but I'm not satisfied with myself I can do better.
Maximizing my potential is still definitly in the works I'm really pushing myself alot going to the gym, working out hard and just doing alot of different things like eating healthy etc.
Stayin close with my family will awlays be easy but Meme, and I seem to be drifting apart =/. I love her with all my heart, and idk I want her but it's hard knowing I'm most likely going away for school, after we graduate....
And make alot of money in poker, I'm declaring myself $0 profit $0 negative. I'm going to start up new and going to save money and do bankroll management, plan on saving up like $400 then playing 4 tables of 6 max of 10c/25c NL we'll see how that goes I'll update everything probably as much as I can. And say if anything interesting happens in my days.
Well it's 4:40AM, and I'm gonna pray and go to bed if even possible, I might play madden that always makes me sleepy.
Good night
Cheers to my first post!
Lol it's funny how I don't just other stuff I used to write about in old posts, but anyways when I read this I looked at the goals for 2009 overall, and how I far exceeded expectation. Number one my relationship with the Lord it was rocky, but for some reason my drive to Him grew with each day, and I've gotten really close to Him again, and it's no wonder I've exceeded my goals, cause I'm not working on them alone for God is working on my behalf backstage, where people think it's all me but I know it's Him allowing me to succeed. So on goal number one success!
Goal number 2, was to get a full paid scholarship to a University, cause of my soccer ability as I was too lazy in school to get good grades. What ended up happening well I did the unimaginable, I began to pursue my life long dream, and was blessed enough to sign a professional soccer contract. I was just hoping to get my University paid, instead I got paid! And now am living in Brazil, although I'm leaving here, it was an unforgettable experience, and has set a great foundation for my soccer career which will be filled with great successes.
Goal Number 3, was to graduate finishing school good, I wouldn't say I exceeded here by any means, but nonetheless I got the task done, I graduated high school, and got my diploma glory to God! :) It was a proud day for my family, and I. Thanks to God I got out of that school, with my diploma and no problems, although I def could have finished school better but oh well.
Goal number 4, was to really maximize my soccer potential. Again far exceeded it, I was one of the slowest, weakest, and a bench player when the year began. But as the year proceeded I became a starter, captain, and signed a pro contract, and won the Disney Soccer Showcase, which was one of my soccer goals, another one was to win Dallas Cup, but it wasn't to be. But again another far exceeded goal here.
Goal number 5, was to stay close to my family, and my somewhat girlfriend Meme. Well I think considering I'm living in another country, and my situation with the 3 hour time difference, and the distance, I've again surpassed expectation. I write emails with my mom all day, I talk with my dad while at work and late at night when were both on, I talk to my brothers all day, and talk about the fun were going to have being all together again. I am still somewhat with my girlfriend Meme, and we have been through a lot, you can imagine how hard it is to hold a relationship, especially like ours, when we were used to seeing each other like 12 hours a day, we just did everything together! I'll be home again soon, and although she works now, and I got to keep training while on my vacation to not give anyone an edge on me, it's going to be amazing too see her. So this goal I say given the circumstances was obtained as well.
Goal number 6, was to make a lot of money on poker, well I was hoping to make 5k maybe over the course of the year, but when u opt in online and casino winnings, I made this year probably a little over 10k! Of course I can't be 100% sure cause I never kept account of my accounts in person but online their are sites that track your profits, and there about 6-8k in profits last I checked I lost some back recently but that's how it goes you win and lose some of it back. So in this one again far exceeded my goal. Also when I won money I would always give 10% of my winnings back in someway, church, donations, or giving it to random people like paying their toll, paying for someones gas, just random stuff that God put in my heart.
So a recap from my first blog amazing stuff. I can't wait to set my 2010 goals, but were going to have to wait, I need to sort them out be reasonable with them as well. Well I hope you enjoyed reading, thanks for those who made it too the end :P I gotta go now more fitness training, since it's we do over here lately is gym in the morning and run in the afternoon. Till the next one!
God Bless
Well I've always wanted my own blog...so here I am! Lol uhm I'm 18 years old, and right now in my life I have certain goals that I'm trying to attain.
Number 1: I would like to closer my relationship with the Lord.
Number 2: I want to get a full ride for soccer to University.
Number 3: Graduate, finishing good in school.
Number 4: Really maximize my potential in soccer.
Number 5: Stay close with my family & my girlfriend somewhat Meme..
Number 6: Make alot of money from poker.
As of now my relationship with the Lord is meh. Not fabulous I really want to get a fire for him again like I did when I was younger. So def. need to work on that.
My full ride for soccer is working out really well I'm currently talking to 4 schools, University Of Albany, University Of St.Johns, University Of Jacksonville, and Coastal Carolina University.
Graduate finishing good in school is alright im doing okay decent but I'm not satisfied with myself I can do better.
Maximizing my potential is still definitly in the works I'm really pushing myself alot going to the gym, working out hard and just doing alot of different things like eating healthy etc.
Stayin close with my family will awlays be easy but Meme, and I seem to be drifting apart =/. I love her with all my heart, and idk I want her but it's hard knowing I'm most likely going away for school, after we graduate....
And make alot of money in poker, I'm declaring myself $0 profit $0 negative. I'm going to start up new and going to save money and do bankroll management, plan on saving up like $400 then playing 4 tables of 6 max of 10c/25c NL we'll see how that goes I'll update everything probably as much as I can. And say if anything interesting happens in my days.
Well it's 4:40AM, and I'm gonna pray and go to bed if even possible, I might play madden that always makes me sleepy.
Good night
Cheers to my first post!
Lol it's funny how I don't just other stuff I used to write about in old posts, but anyways when I read this I looked at the goals for 2009 overall, and how I far exceeded expectation. Number one my relationship with the Lord it was rocky, but for some reason my drive to Him grew with each day, and I've gotten really close to Him again, and it's no wonder I've exceeded my goals, cause I'm not working on them alone for God is working on my behalf backstage, where people think it's all me but I know it's Him allowing me to succeed. So on goal number one success!
Goal number 2, was to get a full paid scholarship to a University, cause of my soccer ability as I was too lazy in school to get good grades. What ended up happening well I did the unimaginable, I began to pursue my life long dream, and was blessed enough to sign a professional soccer contract. I was just hoping to get my University paid, instead I got paid! And now am living in Brazil, although I'm leaving here, it was an unforgettable experience, and has set a great foundation for my soccer career which will be filled with great successes.
Goal Number 3, was to graduate finishing school good, I wouldn't say I exceeded here by any means, but nonetheless I got the task done, I graduated high school, and got my diploma glory to God! :) It was a proud day for my family, and I. Thanks to God I got out of that school, with my diploma and no problems, although I def could have finished school better but oh well.
Goal number 4, was to really maximize my soccer potential. Again far exceeded it, I was one of the slowest, weakest, and a bench player when the year began. But as the year proceeded I became a starter, captain, and signed a pro contract, and won the Disney Soccer Showcase, which was one of my soccer goals, another one was to win Dallas Cup, but it wasn't to be. But again another far exceeded goal here.
Goal number 5, was to stay close to my family, and my somewhat girlfriend Meme. Well I think considering I'm living in another country, and my situation with the 3 hour time difference, and the distance, I've again surpassed expectation. I write emails with my mom all day, I talk with my dad while at work and late at night when were both on, I talk to my brothers all day, and talk about the fun were going to have being all together again. I am still somewhat with my girlfriend Meme, and we have been through a lot, you can imagine how hard it is to hold a relationship, especially like ours, when we were used to seeing each other like 12 hours a day, we just did everything together! I'll be home again soon, and although she works now, and I got to keep training while on my vacation to not give anyone an edge on me, it's going to be amazing too see her. So this goal I say given the circumstances was obtained as well.
Goal number 6, was to make a lot of money on poker, well I was hoping to make 5k maybe over the course of the year, but when u opt in online and casino winnings, I made this year probably a little over 10k! Of course I can't be 100% sure cause I never kept account of my accounts in person but online their are sites that track your profits, and there about 6-8k in profits last I checked I lost some back recently but that's how it goes you win and lose some of it back. So in this one again far exceeded my goal. Also when I won money I would always give 10% of my winnings back in someway, church, donations, or giving it to random people like paying their toll, paying for someones gas, just random stuff that God put in my heart.
So a recap from my first blog amazing stuff. I can't wait to set my 2010 goals, but were going to have to wait, I need to sort them out be reasonable with them as well. Well I hope you enjoyed reading, thanks for those who made it too the end :P I gotta go now more fitness training, since it's we do over here lately is gym in the morning and run in the afternoon. Till the next one!
God Bless
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