Maybe it's too early to be writing up a season report since there is four games left, but then again maybe my time is up in Jacksonville? Keep reading..
A season that has been filled with highs and lows, excitement, disappointment, potential, and failure. It's been a learning experience and one that I won't soon forget. I have been apart of the some of the most unluckiest and bizarre situations in football this season. I have also been apart of a great family who I care like they're my own now. I've made mistakes up here, have had success, needless to say this season has been all over the place. BUT if I could wrap the season up so far in four words I'd say they would have to be "what could have been". Because I mean the team we had was just wonderful, I'm talking about talented players, but just sometimes things don't click...Anyways the Jacksonville Destroyers as a franchise is somewhere I would like to play, even next year (if I'm not playing pro). They have a lot to offer, they have a great fan base, and it's truly a blessing to be playing here. Still though, I feel a lot of things could have been handled, gotten done, and been done better. But then again it is a first year franchise so there will be mistakes but you do hope for less than more. Anyways I don't think to many people who read this care so much about the franchise in it self. So in recent developments this past weekend we lost 5-1 to IMG, then won 2-1 versus Ft. Lauderdale. We have had injuries, players leave, and other players just quit this season heading into the Ft. Lauderdale game we saw something most likely unheard of in FL PDL teams at least. Our coach and former professional who was still relatively young under 30 Eric Dutt told us he'd be taking the pitch with us versus Ft. Lauderdale in order to give the team the best chance to win. He definitely looked nervous at first, but as the game went on he got more comfortable with himself and to be honest surprised all of the guys with playing a good game. So after an uplifting motivating 2-1 win, the next day we hear coach Eric Dutt has been fired by management. Now mind you we have had a terrible season results wise, but with 12 days left in a season to let a guy go it just didn't seem right especially after he put himself out there and we got a win you know?
So that was tough to see and nobody was really sure of who the next head coach was going to be, so a lot of guys began to say there packing up and leaving before or after this weekend and not going to complete the season. In the mix of all this "drama" so to speak, I began doing my own searching with the help of some people. I ended up speaking with the head coach of the playoff bound Orlando Kraze. The coach put it to me very simple after him seeing me play before and looking for a left back. He said "You have a place to stay already, and training is at 8AM tomorrow hope you can make it." As a soccer player when a coach is giving you that much confidence and desire to be somewhere it's always really comforting. So with that I wanted to give it some thought and see what was going to happen with my already team here in Jacksonville before making a final decision.
We proceeded to our training ground at the specified time with our director and new head coach Aidan Davidson. Aidan was the former GK coach, who had left the team earlier this year, and now was coming back as head coach with 12 days left. I'd be lying if I said the team was not disappointed to see Eric leave, but by the same token I don't think anyone was upset that Aidan was our new head coach. Mainly because he played 20 years of soccer at the professional level, in the premiership over in England. So his resume with that alone, speaks for itself. And the man obviously has knowledge of football. So now I was in a predicament, on whether to leave to a playoff team for the ending of this season, or finish out what I came to do this summer with Jacksonville. After a lot of thought, speaking with family, friends and peoples who opinion matter most to me. I gotta say I got my most important conversation from Josh the assistant coach, him and I talk a lot about a range of topics but the two big ones are always God and soccer. So after speaking with everyone and thinking things through my decision was to stay with Jax. I was upset with myself, because the night before the meeting I had sat down with God prayed and worshipped and felt this sort of unsure feeling of where to go. My mind was set on Kraze, but with God when you have an unsure feeling then what your thinking is more often than not wrong. I mention this because I want to publicly say that I struggle submitting myself with sometimes Gods decisions for me. I thank God He put people in my life like family, and friends to help me with my decision, but in the end I care about what God has next for me. So if you ever struggle with decision making, let God have control and SUBMIT yourself to Him. He will guide you better than anyone can.
So with that my decision is to stay with the team, complete this season and see where I go from there. In other news Allie and I have been making huge pushes to get my name out there and get possible trials. Allie as always one of the biggest helps in my soccer career, and we are doing everything possible to have something come my way. I will keep everyone updated on trials that I might have or go to, as the time comes. For now we got a new head coach 11 days left in the season it's time to work hard, and finish strong. So follow the team on our website @ WWW.JAXDESTROYERS.COM and on Twitter at @JaxDestroyers . That's it for me today, I'm blessed with so many great people around me from the Pitman family which I'm staying with to the coaches God has put in my path. This summer has been a good one in my eyes personally I believe and it's not done yet, time to go out with a bang! Never stop chasing...accept that failure, struggle, and not the best conditions will be given to you but as I've always said on this blog. "Las cosas con mas sacrificio dan las mas grandes recompensas". The things with the biggest sacrifice, will always have the best rewards. For those of you going through hard times as well, remember blessings in disguise.
God Bless
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