So much stuff to write about! It's 1:34AM I expect to be up to about 2AM probably just writing, texting, tweeting, facebooking, AIM, it's gross how technology dependant I've become but oh well. I'm excited for things to come in 2011, I'm saying it now and saying it with confidence it's gonna be a real big year! So I'm going to try and go as far back as possible back to Colombia. As you guys know I was on trial with Junior (de Barranquilla) with the reserves of the first team. And it went well I am officially going back on Jan 2nd and having a second trial. I can not thank God enough, and I'm pretty sure some of my actions since my return to Miami haven't been that great, I've asked for forgiveness and made a change. I went out one last night and haven't gone out since. I told God I'm gonna dedicate myself to the things that need to be taken care of, and stick to them. So I haven't been going out despite the fact that I'm itching to! It sucks I got accustomed to that lifestyle, but lifestyle changes have to be made. I swear my mom tells me the coolest quotes you guys already know the one I excessively talk about, but this one was cool she said "Danny if you want to make your dream come true you need the three D's. Discipline, Determination, and Desire. LOVE THIS. My mom is dope. #thumbs up! Yeah I use hashtags now, cause I'm a twitter guy. Follow me @DannyPlaySoccer.
So I tried looking for my goals of 2010 but I couldn't find them :/ anyways I don't think I was relatively to successful but this year has come and gone, and am now looking forward to a real big 2011. Many are wondering what's going to happen with Traffic and I as a lot of people know on Dec 31st there was an option that had to be excersized in whether to move forward and renew a 2 year contract or to go our seperate ways. I think both parties would agree it was best to go our seperate ways, and so we did. All the legal paperwork hasn't been done yet, but it should be processed soon. So this basically means I'm a free agent and own the rights to my soccer pass :). Hopefully everything goes Gods way and His will and I sign in Colombia. Just gotta have faith and trust in God.
Christmas was awesome I mean I didn't really get anything extraordinary, but it's cause I'm blessed with everything I want already, but it was a lot of fun spoiling my mom, dad, and brothers with gifts. Always remember it's better to give then to get. I know society tries to f--k up your mentality with greed but don't be fooled. It's always good to give, when your in a position that enables you too.
People continue to fall in and out of my life, but for some reason I stand unaffected by it, something I really love to do though, is meet new people. I don't know why I love having conversations with different people, and learning about them. Sometimes at least.
My dads job the family business has really excelled this year. My brother began working there part time, I work there along with my mom voluntarily (my mom has her own job). The company has grown an incredible 24% and that just goes to show you that with God all things are possible! Never let any hater tell you otherwise. That's one thing I really can't stand a hater, they're just so negative, and annoying. But whatever my dads business has really excelled and all the glory goes to the man upstairs thank you God for your work over my life, and my families life. My dads job is a freight forwarding company so if you need anything at all shipped from here to Colombia we got you with the best prices and service. Allcourier.com . Yeah that was my promotional bit! :)
I want to give a special thanks to my boys, I know I chill with a lot of different people, but like I said I like vibing with different people, but for sure these guys who come out and party with me, and have been my boys like family since 6th grade yall know who you are no need to name you guys, but man you guys are true friends love yall and wish you guys nothing but the best in all your endeavors brothers! 3
Uhmm so it's technically the 29th, and I leave the 2nd, crazy! Today the 29th is going to be filled with hopefully a breakfast date :) working at the family bizz, working out, eye doctor, some errands, and than a dinner date with mi amigaaaaa with great food involved! the 30th is going to be a free day to do things for me, but at night I'm gonna be with my friend having a quiet evening and hopefully catching a movie that I've been wanting to watch I forgot the name but I know when I see the name it'll come back to me. The 31st/1st with my family and enjoying there company while with them and the 2nd I'm outta hurrrrrrr.
Excitedexcitedexcitedexcited for 2011!! I know big things are coming, dream BIG, cause you have a BIG God. No point in dreaming a mediocre dream! Thank you all of you that have helped me, or betrayed me, loved me, or hated me, I've gotten to meet, or have stepped out, cause it is you people who have molded me into the person that is stepping into 2011. I've grown through so many mistakes this year. God all I want to do now is receive your shower of blessings, and return to you all the Glory, I don't seek no crown, no fame, no glory, I give it to you as you are the reason for my success and the one who deserves it all not me God. Thank you all for reading sorry if I bored you with a long post, that wasn't quite interesting on my points and views, but just more about me and what's to come! Have a blessed day/night and never forget to walk around with a smile on your face :)
God Bless!
Wednesday, December 29, 2010
Sunday, December 19, 2010
One week later.
One week. All it took for me to push peoples buttons, and almost manage to tarnish a marriage. Crazy right? If anything you'd think I'm fuc-ing with someones wife or something, but na it's my own family. Monday night I got back from NYC I made a stupid selfish decision, Thursday I managed to do it again & to than Saturday was the icing on the cake. I disrespected, & nearly tore a family apart. I'm really that selfish of a person? Do I really think about myself and not others? I won't get that into detail but I mean I was born and raised with proper principles, proper morals, and pretty much a spoiled life. Why the hell can't I give back everyday to those who give me everyday. Who break there OWN backs for ME. Why must I attempt to please everyone and live a life that's not true. I was hit with some pretty hard words today, words that make u scared, words that make u feel pain, and not one mans pain, but 5 peoples pain, a families pain.
My friends who really do keep up with my blog know how I am. I'm never one to be shy about myself, and whether I had great success or great failure I will write about it. I'm not one of those people who only talk or show my face when I succeed only, I tell my story whether it's good, or bad. Cause I know it's something people can relate to. If I would only write when things were going good, everybody would think I have the perfect life. But that's not the case, the truth is I have been through a lot and will continue too, this just helps me vent and I hope it may also serve as a motivational tool one day for some people or maybe an inspiration, whatever. That being the case I'm making changes. I'm not really sure how many times I've said this or if I've even said it, but I really am. For now don't worry what exactly I'm going to do, cause quite frankly I'm not 100% sure yet what I am going to do, but definitely making changes and going to move forward with them for my own good. Is that me being selfish again? I hope not I'm just trying to change my life for the better. And not only for the better for me, but for those I care about most. Todays words from my dad also made me realize how true is the fact that my friends are counted probably on my fingers.
I also wanted to mention how incredibly stupid I've been over the past 18 months with my soccer career. I know what I want in life but at the same time I want to live a lifestyle that has it all when I don't. Not even close. If I truthfully would've gave soccer my all and tried right now I should be making a lot of more money, be a lot more successful. Instead I'm struggling, grinding, hustling. See in the past 18 months, I've taken soccer for granted and probably as of last month I took it serious again, and was really working at it, until I came back to Miami and people put me back into a lifestyle I love but isn't healthy and will end real quick for me unless I get on my sh-t. So I hope I'm able to salvage my soccer career after an 18 month money blowing, hurt my own body, ignorant, arrogant lifestyle. I've lost people, I've lost friends, I've gained friends, met great people, seeing lives changes, seeing lives taken, time to take my fuc-ing life into my hands and fight for what I want. Most importantly return to a lifestyle that's pleasing to God. Not a lifestyle that pleases me or you, cause why should I give a fu-k about making myself or you happy, when God gave me everything, he's kept me alive, he's kept me going, he continues to bless me. Heeee deserves my life, so I now try to make changes for the better to put a smile on my Gods face. If you down with my life, fu-k with me then, if you not ride out. I slipped, I don't do that often but glad my parents caught me slipping before someone else did. Cause my family gave me a second chance, you may not understand why I'm going so deep, but it's cause some sh-t isn't mentioned on here, but just know that I'm changing, so if ya see me and tell me I changed I hope you can say it's for the better, unless your a promoter and I'm not fuc-ing throwing hundreds in your pocket for something I can cap for $25 at the corner store. I'm not down to waste another 40k over the next 18 months. I don't got money like that, I don't want to live a life like that, I'm done. So enjoy what I gave you world, enjoy it good, cause I'm changing going back to God now, it's not easy I'm a prideful ni--a but I know God awaits for me with arms open. I just hope this time when he closes his arms around me, I don't let go again or push him away. God told me......I need gratitude maybe just a sample, cause he never gave me anything that I really couldn't handle..
God Bless..
My friends who really do keep up with my blog know how I am. I'm never one to be shy about myself, and whether I had great success or great failure I will write about it. I'm not one of those people who only talk or show my face when I succeed only, I tell my story whether it's good, or bad. Cause I know it's something people can relate to. If I would only write when things were going good, everybody would think I have the perfect life. But that's not the case, the truth is I have been through a lot and will continue too, this just helps me vent and I hope it may also serve as a motivational tool one day for some people or maybe an inspiration, whatever. That being the case I'm making changes. I'm not really sure how many times I've said this or if I've even said it, but I really am. For now don't worry what exactly I'm going to do, cause quite frankly I'm not 100% sure yet what I am going to do, but definitely making changes and going to move forward with them for my own good. Is that me being selfish again? I hope not I'm just trying to change my life for the better. And not only for the better for me, but for those I care about most. Todays words from my dad also made me realize how true is the fact that my friends are counted probably on my fingers.
I also wanted to mention how incredibly stupid I've been over the past 18 months with my soccer career. I know what I want in life but at the same time I want to live a lifestyle that has it all when I don't. Not even close. If I truthfully would've gave soccer my all and tried right now I should be making a lot of more money, be a lot more successful. Instead I'm struggling, grinding, hustling. See in the past 18 months, I've taken soccer for granted and probably as of last month I took it serious again, and was really working at it, until I came back to Miami and people put me back into a lifestyle I love but isn't healthy and will end real quick for me unless I get on my sh-t. So I hope I'm able to salvage my soccer career after an 18 month money blowing, hurt my own body, ignorant, arrogant lifestyle. I've lost people, I've lost friends, I've gained friends, met great people, seeing lives changes, seeing lives taken, time to take my fuc-ing life into my hands and fight for what I want. Most importantly return to a lifestyle that's pleasing to God. Not a lifestyle that pleases me or you, cause why should I give a fu-k about making myself or you happy, when God gave me everything, he's kept me alive, he's kept me going, he continues to bless me. Heeee deserves my life, so I now try to make changes for the better to put a smile on my Gods face. If you down with my life, fu-k with me then, if you not ride out. I slipped, I don't do that often but glad my parents caught me slipping before someone else did. Cause my family gave me a second chance, you may not understand why I'm going so deep, but it's cause some sh-t isn't mentioned on here, but just know that I'm changing, so if ya see me and tell me I changed I hope you can say it's for the better, unless your a promoter and I'm not fuc-ing throwing hundreds in your pocket for something I can cap for $25 at the corner store. I'm not down to waste another 40k over the next 18 months. I don't got money like that, I don't want to live a life like that, I'm done. So enjoy what I gave you world, enjoy it good, cause I'm changing going back to God now, it's not easy I'm a prideful ni--a but I know God awaits for me with arms open. I just hope this time when he closes his arms around me, I don't let go again or push him away. God told me......I need gratitude maybe just a sample, cause he never gave me anything that I really couldn't handle..
God Bless..
Monday, December 6, 2010
December 7th - December 31st.
Plans galore! I've been in Colombia now for a like about a month, although I was only suppose to be here for about a week, but that's how this life is always changing always moving, always progressing. Thank you God for helping me each day and raining my life with a shower of blessings! But anyways although I'm not much of a planner I usually just have goals and ideas and try to make them happen as time passes, I actually have some planned stuff ahead!
EDITED:::::
Today the 7th I'm flying back home. Get in around 8ish then be with my family and friends till the 9th.
(Check)
Next day the 8th going to check out La Roux live @ Mansion nightclub.
(Didn't happen found out my mom leaves to Chicago for a week on Sunday so she said to spend time with her and the family & not go out).
The 9th around 6ish I'm off to NYC with my brother his girlfriend, and friends should be a lot of fun.
(Check, amazing time)!
The 11th while in NYC going to check out Eric Morillo, and Fedde Le Grand live @ Pacha nightclub.
(Didn't happened ended up at a lounge/club called Butter very upscale very nice awesome time, thanks again Viviana)!
The 12th it's off to see a HUGE rivalry & division game between the Miami Dolphins vs the New York Jets.
(Check, huge success tons of fun, got the W. Almost got into a brawl with Jets fan they backed off lololol don't mess with a group of passionate Miami fans)!
Then the 13th on plane back to Miami.
(Check, currently on the way back home free wifi :))
The 14th-23rd I gotta manage a way to do my private training sessions, work out, work with my dad, have a meeting with Traffic (more on that on another post), make travel arrangements for Colombia (more on that on a later blog), go to church every friday, spend time with family & friends, feed the poor the 18th in downtown, play a poker tournament the 19th in Ft.Lauderdale, and do Xmas shopping. I'll cope though always have, always will!
(We'll see how this goes though I feel as if I'm gonna be able to incorporate time for everything thank God, I'm actually pretty excited to return to church this Friday)!
24th-25th Christmas celebrations with the people I love and care about the most.
26th-30th finish up anything I wasn't able to do from the 14th-23rd.
31st my boy Dustins birthday, and new years eve party (still undecided what exactly is going down)!
Well that's just the timeline for me for the next 24 days got some exciting stuff in there, I plan on doing probably two more blog posts before this year is over, one covering if I was able to succeed in my goals of 2010! I'm excited for the way things are going in my life right now, BELIEVE & have FAITH in GOD He will always lead you in the right way, remember Gods grace won't ever take you where He won't protect you walk with your eyes closed sometimes and trust in your mighty God :) feeling good right now, take care everyone thanks for reading! :)
God Bless!!
EDITED:::::
Today the 7th I'm flying back home. Get in around 8ish then be with my family and friends till the 9th.
(Check)
Next day the 8th going to check out La Roux live @ Mansion nightclub.
(Didn't happen found out my mom leaves to Chicago for a week on Sunday so she said to spend time with her and the family & not go out).
The 9th around 6ish I'm off to NYC with my brother his girlfriend, and friends should be a lot of fun.
(Check, amazing time)!
The 11th while in NYC going to check out Eric Morillo, and Fedde Le Grand live @ Pacha nightclub.
(Didn't happened ended up at a lounge/club called Butter very upscale very nice awesome time, thanks again Viviana)!
The 12th it's off to see a HUGE rivalry & division game between the Miami Dolphins vs the New York Jets.
(Check, huge success tons of fun, got the W. Almost got into a brawl with Jets fan they backed off lololol don't mess with a group of passionate Miami fans)!
Then the 13th on plane back to Miami.
(Check, currently on the way back home free wifi :))
The 14th-23rd I gotta manage a way to do my private training sessions, work out, work with my dad, have a meeting with Traffic (more on that on another post), make travel arrangements for Colombia (more on that on a later blog), go to church every friday, spend time with family & friends, feed the poor the 18th in downtown, play a poker tournament the 19th in Ft.Lauderdale, and do Xmas shopping. I'll cope though always have, always will!
(We'll see how this goes though I feel as if I'm gonna be able to incorporate time for everything thank God, I'm actually pretty excited to return to church this Friday)!
24th-25th Christmas celebrations with the people I love and care about the most.
26th-30th finish up anything I wasn't able to do from the 14th-23rd.
31st my boy Dustins birthday, and new years eve party (still undecided what exactly is going down)!
Well that's just the timeline for me for the next 24 days got some exciting stuff in there, I plan on doing probably two more blog posts before this year is over, one covering if I was able to succeed in my goals of 2010! I'm excited for the way things are going in my life right now, BELIEVE & have FAITH in GOD He will always lead you in the right way, remember Gods grace won't ever take you where He won't protect you walk with your eyes closed sometimes and trust in your mighty God :) feeling good right now, take care everyone thanks for reading! :)
God Bless!!
A special thank you, Un agradecimiento especial.
Well I'm all packed up & ready to go. My flight back home leaves @ 5:30pm from Barranquilla, Colombia back to my home city Miami, FL :) . I just want to thank the Lizcano family for taking care of me and bringing me in and really being a true example of family. The rest will be in spanish for them to read.
Primero de todo perdoname por si no entienden ciertas partes porque no puedo escribir el espanol tan bueno jaja. Pero hablando en serio Conchi, Alvaro, Mari, Andrea, y MAIKA!! Jaja gracias por todo. Le doy gracias a Dios que tengo familia como ustedes me a sentido en casa todo este tiempo que me a quedado por aka. Les quisiera pagarle con algo, pero no ay forma en pagarle de vuelta como ustedes me an dado amor de familia, cuidado, y ayudarme. Si Dios quiere vuelve en Enero, firmo con el Junior y me puedo quedar mas tiempo con ustedes. Alvaro gracias por darme sus consejos, Conchi gracias por quidarme y siempre estar pendiente de mi, Mari y Andrea gracias por presentarme a amigas, a los novios, y por sacarme a divertire me y tal cosa, y ultimamente gracias a Maika jaja por cocinarme todaaaaa la comida de este mundo jaja. Pero solo queria darle gracias a todos!! Estoy muy feliz y mas de todo orgulloso para decir que ustedes son MI FAMILIA! Nos veramos de nuevo pronto y hasta ese dia Feliz dia de las velitas, Navidad, y ano nuevo no tomen mucho sin mi jajaja! Bueno que mi Dios lo siga bendiciendo y otra vez gracias por todo un abrazo!!
Danny :)
God Bless!
Primero de todo perdoname por si no entienden ciertas partes porque no puedo escribir el espanol tan bueno jaja. Pero hablando en serio Conchi, Alvaro, Mari, Andrea, y MAIKA!! Jaja gracias por todo. Le doy gracias a Dios que tengo familia como ustedes me a sentido en casa todo este tiempo que me a quedado por aka. Les quisiera pagarle con algo, pero no ay forma en pagarle de vuelta como ustedes me an dado amor de familia, cuidado, y ayudarme. Si Dios quiere vuelve en Enero, firmo con el Junior y me puedo quedar mas tiempo con ustedes. Alvaro gracias por darme sus consejos, Conchi gracias por quidarme y siempre estar pendiente de mi, Mari y Andrea gracias por presentarme a amigas, a los novios, y por sacarme a divertire me y tal cosa, y ultimamente gracias a Maika jaja por cocinarme todaaaaa la comida de este mundo jaja. Pero solo queria darle gracias a todos!! Estoy muy feliz y mas de todo orgulloso para decir que ustedes son MI FAMILIA! Nos veramos de nuevo pronto y hasta ese dia Feliz dia de las velitas, Navidad, y ano nuevo no tomen mucho sin mi jajaja! Bueno que mi Dios lo siga bendiciendo y otra vez gracias por todo un abrazo!!
Danny :)
God Bless!
Sunday, November 28, 2010
5 letter word.
EDIT::Post sucks, posted it up for the sake of the topic and maybe for you to learn something like I did!
This 5 letter word says, be careful of what you do to others as it might come back to bite you in the ass. Well that wasn't much of a riddle. A word commonly thrown around these days mostly out of anger, karma. I hear it a lot, I've heard it personally thrown at me, and I've heard others talk about how they fear it, and or wish it upon others.
This topic so to speak got me wondering what the exact definition for the word karma is. Well here it is according to Answers.com.
The total effect of a person's actions and conduct during the successive phases of the person's existence, regarded as determining the person's destiny.
This comes from Buddhism. I was literally about to stop this post. Cause I can't really further elaborate on it like I would. Fact of the matter is I learned something right now, that I don't believe in karma. Karma claims that if you're quote unlucky or have "bad karma" in this life your currently living it's cause you did something in a previous life to receive that bad karma. Same goes for good karma I suppose. While on this page though looking at the definition it had an advertisement that read "FREE PAST LIFE KARMA". As I finish this sentence I'm going to click it, and then continue to blog.
Click yourself to find out. http://www.aboutastro.com/cgi-bin/reg2011.cgi?r=plgl54-rc&a=2010-12-12&gclid=COyYj9yaxaUCFQ9a7AodA1SqYA
I was really tempted to continue on with this advertisement for the sake of the blog, but it's just screaming out to me virus & spam. Ah what a shitty post. I still feel like writing I'm gonna get another idea, and post. Sorry for a boring blog post. In conclusion karma you suck, even to write about. Oh and yeah I don't believe in you.
God Bless!!
This 5 letter word says, be careful of what you do to others as it might come back to bite you in the ass. Well that wasn't much of a riddle. A word commonly thrown around these days mostly out of anger, karma. I hear it a lot, I've heard it personally thrown at me, and I've heard others talk about how they fear it, and or wish it upon others.
This topic so to speak got me wondering what the exact definition for the word karma is. Well here it is according to Answers.com.
The total effect of a person's actions and conduct during the successive phases of the person's existence, regarded as determining the person's destiny.
This comes from Buddhism. I was literally about to stop this post. Cause I can't really further elaborate on it like I would. Fact of the matter is I learned something right now, that I don't believe in karma. Karma claims that if you're quote unlucky or have "bad karma" in this life your currently living it's cause you did something in a previous life to receive that bad karma. Same goes for good karma I suppose. While on this page though looking at the definition it had an advertisement that read "FREE PAST LIFE KARMA". As I finish this sentence I'm going to click it, and then continue to blog.
Click yourself to find out. http://www.aboutastro.com/cgi-bin/reg2011.cgi?r=plgl54-rc&a=2010-12-12&gclid=COyYj9yaxaUCFQ9a7AodA1SqYA
I was really tempted to continue on with this advertisement for the sake of the blog, but it's just screaming out to me virus & spam. Ah what a shitty post. I still feel like writing I'm gonna get another idea, and post. Sorry for a boring blog post. In conclusion karma you suck, even to write about. Oh and yeah I don't believe in you.
God Bless!!
Wednesday, November 24, 2010
Never give up.
Dreams. Simple word. So many different meanings for so many different people. The best thing about a dream is that it's yours, and nobody can tell you otherwise. If you have a dream, I hope it's a big one. You know I -excuse me WE all have a BIG God, who does BIG things so you know what dream BIG today. Don't be afraid of failure. Not sure who's quote this is but "You'll always miss 100% of the shots you don't take". So why not take a shot at the something that seems surreal. Why dream about just getting by and having a decent job, instead dream about that life you've always longed for and go CHASE IT! I know some peoples situations aren't as great as others, but believe me there's no excuse. People have come from nothing literally nothing, and have been able to overcome all obstacles to accomplish their dreams. Why can't you?
Never give up. Never let anyone tell you what you CAN & can't do. You are your own person and you on your own can decide what you can and can't do. Me personally I like to ask for Gods guidance and His will upon things before I do them. That way I know I'm pleasing Him when I'm doing what I want, if it's not what He wants then I'll alter my ambition for something else. That's my point of view and everyone has their own I just thought I should share mine. Anyways today I want to encourage you, to not give up on something your striving for, no matter how far out of reach it is. Have faith and know that a dream, especially a big one is tough to attain. "If something is easy, it's not worth it." Your dream shouldn't happen overnight regardless of what it is unless your dream is to win the lottery lol. But in all realness, you know what's the best thing about accomplishing a dream. I can't say from experience or anything but what I imagine is, looking back and saying I proved all those doubters wrong, and on top of that look at all the struggles I fought through to get where I'm at today. I just feel like that'll give you a sense of accomplishment, of success, of pride for what you did.
So if you've recently fallen off the path of what was your path to your dreams, then get back on! Don't wait till tomorrow, don't prolong it anymore. Were in a society today in day where everything is competition. Even with school it's all about GPA, volunteer work, extra curricular activities, SAT, etc. Society has taught us to be selfish in the sense of your dreams, I gotta say I agree. A dream is something you must fight and compete for. Cause your not the only one with that dream, so if you want it you better put the time, dedication, and sacrifice needed to make that dream a reality. It's a cruel world, filled with people who will do anything for what they truly want. I'm sure you guys know this by now at least my loyal readers about what my mom has always told me "Las cosas con mas sacrifico dan las mas grandes recompensas". So give your all, and after you've given your all give your everything. Don't quit. Instead get back up and fight! Believe! Have faith, talk positive over yourself and go snag that dream. I'm not a big Lady Gaga fan at all, but I LOVE this quote and it fits in perfect with the subject at hand. “I don’t like Los Angeles. The people are awful and terribly shallow, and everybody wants to be famous but nobody wants to play the game. I'm from New York. I will kill to get what I need.” That right there is a killer mentality I LOVE it. Anyways that's about it for me today. I'm going to get some rest. I'll leave you guys with some more quotes to hopefully make you believe.
“You see things; and you say, 'Why?' But I dream things that never were; and I say, 'Why not?'”
“Keep your dreams alive. Understand to achieve anything requires faith and belief in yourself, vision, hard work, determination, and dedication. Remember all things are possible for those who believe.”
“The only thing that will stop you from fulfilling your dreams is you.”
God bless!!
Never give up. Never let anyone tell you what you CAN & can't do. You are your own person and you on your own can decide what you can and can't do. Me personally I like to ask for Gods guidance and His will upon things before I do them. That way I know I'm pleasing Him when I'm doing what I want, if it's not what He wants then I'll alter my ambition for something else. That's my point of view and everyone has their own I just thought I should share mine. Anyways today I want to encourage you, to not give up on something your striving for, no matter how far out of reach it is. Have faith and know that a dream, especially a big one is tough to attain. "If something is easy, it's not worth it." Your dream shouldn't happen overnight regardless of what it is unless your dream is to win the lottery lol. But in all realness, you know what's the best thing about accomplishing a dream. I can't say from experience or anything but what I imagine is, looking back and saying I proved all those doubters wrong, and on top of that look at all the struggles I fought through to get where I'm at today. I just feel like that'll give you a sense of accomplishment, of success, of pride for what you did.
So if you've recently fallen off the path of what was your path to your dreams, then get back on! Don't wait till tomorrow, don't prolong it anymore. Were in a society today in day where everything is competition. Even with school it's all about GPA, volunteer work, extra curricular activities, SAT, etc. Society has taught us to be selfish in the sense of your dreams, I gotta say I agree. A dream is something you must fight and compete for. Cause your not the only one with that dream, so if you want it you better put the time, dedication, and sacrifice needed to make that dream a reality. It's a cruel world, filled with people who will do anything for what they truly want. I'm sure you guys know this by now at least my loyal readers about what my mom has always told me "Las cosas con mas sacrifico dan las mas grandes recompensas". So give your all, and after you've given your all give your everything. Don't quit. Instead get back up and fight! Believe! Have faith, talk positive over yourself and go snag that dream. I'm not a big Lady Gaga fan at all, but I LOVE this quote and it fits in perfect with the subject at hand. “I don’t like Los Angeles. The people are awful and terribly shallow, and everybody wants to be famous but nobody wants to play the game. I'm from New York. I will kill to get what I need.” That right there is a killer mentality I LOVE it. Anyways that's about it for me today. I'm going to get some rest. I'll leave you guys with some more quotes to hopefully make you believe.
“You see things; and you say, 'Why?' But I dream things that never were; and I say, 'Why not?'”
“Keep your dreams alive. Understand to achieve anything requires faith and belief in yourself, vision, hard work, determination, and dedication. Remember all things are possible for those who believe.”
“The only thing that will stop you from fulfilling your dreams is you.”
God bless!!
Friday, November 19, 2010
Hambientesss
I'll post about soccer when I get back to the states. Right now I want to talk about the different "hambientes". When I say that I mean the way they live over here (Colombia) compared to the States. One thing I absolutely love is the people over here, it's the friendliness, the happiness, the HAMBIENTE. Lol sorry that word is just so perfect for what I'm attempting to describe to yall.
Anyways some examples would be it's shocking how poor some people could be, and how happy they still happen to be. These people are the definition of money can't buy happiness in the poor sense. The other way would be a rich person who just can't find happiness cause of all his greed or whatever reason. But whatever, these people LOVE there country! The other day we were driving by these fu**ed up streets, and the poor people are the ones fixing it, they don't get money for it, they just keep there country, there area, there home, the streets clean. In the US some people won't even make an effort to throw there own trash in a trash can, I've been guilty of this, but I definitely have bettered myself, and I don't hesitate even now to clean after others trash left on the floor. I'm just pointing out some little things that you notice when your in a different country.
This part I HATE about the US and LOVE about Colombia. The people over here are not to THEMSELVES. They never hesitate to hold a door open, say hello when stepping into an elevator, or help you if you seem lost. I was walking with my dad on the streets the other day looking for the dentist, and this guy noticed we looked lost. We weren't talking or asking anything and he politely asked if we needed help, guided us, and we thanked him and went our separate ways. Now some may feel what I'm about to say isn't completely true, but in the states you can ask someone for help and they'll ignore you! I remember in NY that happened to me this guy blatantly ignored my friends, and I. It's as if in the states everyone is in there own bubble nobody wants to talk to others, or help others out like free for all, every man for themselves it's annoying at times. The other thing is out here people are always hanging out on the corners, chilling talking, at bars in the afternoon not even drinking just chatting. I LOVE that. In Miami this is true/false you have your people that if you want to hang out with them you got to plan 9 days in advance, tell them the price of the meal, who's going to drive, what exact time, and how long it will take. Now listen I know sometimes you got other responsibilities but I love the Miami people who your just like hey let's go to the beach, alright let go! Or hey let's go to this place, and than from there we'll just see what happens and do something else and whatever. There is barely anymore spontaneous people in Miami. But the times that people are spontaneous, (and I bet you that you can ask them this) is usually when they have the best times ever. Those random unplanned days & nights are always funner than the "hey thursday 8pm here then 9:22pm there, and than this and that" ah hate that. Sometimes it's good to have it planned out, but always better to just be spontaneous. Hang out with friends talk for a little. People in the states get so rowled up in their own business that their lives become routine. School, work, cook, save money, pay bills, clean, sleep, repeat. Live a little enjoy life!!! Be happy, be spontaneous!!
God bless!
Anyways some examples would be it's shocking how poor some people could be, and how happy they still happen to be. These people are the definition of money can't buy happiness in the poor sense. The other way would be a rich person who just can't find happiness cause of all his greed or whatever reason. But whatever, these people LOVE there country! The other day we were driving by these fu**ed up streets, and the poor people are the ones fixing it, they don't get money for it, they just keep there country, there area, there home, the streets clean. In the US some people won't even make an effort to throw there own trash in a trash can, I've been guilty of this, but I definitely have bettered myself, and I don't hesitate even now to clean after others trash left on the floor. I'm just pointing out some little things that you notice when your in a different country.
This part I HATE about the US and LOVE about Colombia. The people over here are not to THEMSELVES. They never hesitate to hold a door open, say hello when stepping into an elevator, or help you if you seem lost. I was walking with my dad on the streets the other day looking for the dentist, and this guy noticed we looked lost. We weren't talking or asking anything and he politely asked if we needed help, guided us, and we thanked him and went our separate ways. Now some may feel what I'm about to say isn't completely true, but in the states you can ask someone for help and they'll ignore you! I remember in NY that happened to me this guy blatantly ignored my friends, and I. It's as if in the states everyone is in there own bubble nobody wants to talk to others, or help others out like free for all, every man for themselves it's annoying at times. The other thing is out here people are always hanging out on the corners, chilling talking, at bars in the afternoon not even drinking just chatting. I LOVE that. In Miami this is true/false you have your people that if you want to hang out with them you got to plan 9 days in advance, tell them the price of the meal, who's going to drive, what exact time, and how long it will take. Now listen I know sometimes you got other responsibilities but I love the Miami people who your just like hey let's go to the beach, alright let go! Or hey let's go to this place, and than from there we'll just see what happens and do something else and whatever. There is barely anymore spontaneous people in Miami. But the times that people are spontaneous, (and I bet you that you can ask them this) is usually when they have the best times ever. Those random unplanned days & nights are always funner than the "hey thursday 8pm here then 9:22pm there, and than this and that" ah hate that. Sometimes it's good to have it planned out, but always better to just be spontaneous. Hang out with friends talk for a little. People in the states get so rowled up in their own business that their lives become routine. School, work, cook, save money, pay bills, clean, sleep, repeat. Live a little enjoy life!!! Be happy, be spontaneous!!
God bless!
Sunday, November 14, 2010
Off To Colombia!
Wassuppppp!!! I been doing my own thing in Miami as of late. Personal training, gym, eating right (trying), not going out as much, working a lot in my dads business, playing with friends 5v5, 11v11. Anywayssss, It's currently 4:34AM as I type away. I'm excited about my trip to Colombia to visit family I haven't seen years, and to try out with Junior or at least train with them (the first team). I feel honestly more prepared for this trial than any other one, but we'll have to wait and see what God has in store for me. I gotta say a lot of things have gotten better in my life as of late. For example I'm back to a lot more consistent praying, helping others out, going to church, and being more responsible. Back to my trip to Colombia I leave tomorrow at 2:00PM and will be gone for a week, it's gonna be nice to get away from Miami for a bit, everyone can always use a break from it from time to time.
After that Thanksgiving will be coming up & my best friend who moved to Atlanta will be back in town!! We already have some pretty major going out plans after Thanksgiving day! I also got a trip planned already to New York on December 9th to the 13th with my brother and friends to watch the Dolphin V Jets game, and sightsee. I have a friend over there who is going to show me around so should be lots of fun! I'm also planning to visit a friend of mine who moved to Panama for school but that might be sometime in January after Christmas and New Years!! So overall life is feeling pretty fulfilling with some exciting stuff coming up in the near future! I should be updating when I get back from Colombia but we'll see how that goes. Till the next post may God bless you, and have some faith, dream big, work for what you want. Oh something else that's lately been in my head...
"People want change in their lives, but don't change anything about their lives."
God Bless!!
After that Thanksgiving will be coming up & my best friend who moved to Atlanta will be back in town!! We already have some pretty major going out plans after Thanksgiving day! I also got a trip planned already to New York on December 9th to the 13th with my brother and friends to watch the Dolphin V Jets game, and sightsee. I have a friend over there who is going to show me around so should be lots of fun! I'm also planning to visit a friend of mine who moved to Panama for school but that might be sometime in January after Christmas and New Years!! So overall life is feeling pretty fulfilling with some exciting stuff coming up in the near future! I should be updating when I get back from Colombia but we'll see how that goes. Till the next post may God bless you, and have some faith, dream big, work for what you want. Oh something else that's lately been in my head...
"People want change in their lives, but don't change anything about their lives."
God Bless!!
Friday, November 5, 2010
Lecrae - Truth
I don't even have to say anything, just listen ------> http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5zBcXKVaFg8
Then read the lyrics below to really understand the message. Back to church tonight, it feels like it's going to be good.
This song right here is for everybody out there looking for truth
And who says, ya know, we all in the same boat
Christians, Muslims, everybody like that
You're looking for truth
(Oh) I got some answers man
(So good to me) let's get into it.
Let's go
Night and day I ain't scared to sayin we different
They play the prostitute, but they like to say they just intimate
Idols in their heart, they can't seem to lose the grip on it
Seem em walking in the direction they can get crippled with?
Our world is different like Whitley and Wayne, mayne
They say we look the same, but we ain't chasin the same thing
It all boils down to they think everything is relative
Jesus might as well be a South American president
Very evident…they say that Jesus was heaven sent
They lifestyle reflects that they worship theyself instead of him
They don't acknowledge the Christ
If they did, they wouldn't worship themselves by the way that they live
All these rappers say they got guns that spray of 16
I got a Luke 9 that can take all 16
That's the Bible, the one they call
But they don't care about the author, They think he's a joke
Man, see some folks say, "All truth is relative, it just depends on what you believe." You know, "hey man, ain't no way to know for sure who God is or what's really true." But that means you believe your own statement; that there's no way to know what's really true. You're saying that that statement is true. You're killing yourself. If what's true for you is true for you and what's true for me is true for me, what if my truth says your's is a lie? Is it still true? Come on man!
I promise everybody is askin the same questions, "Who am I? What is my purpose and my direction?"
Probably believe that you exist for no other reason
Than self satisfaction, hedonism, and pleasing things
Life's about you gettin yours and being happy
Even if it means a divorce and switchin families?
Your job, your house, your car, your spouse
It's all for the glory of you…else you out
You go to school, get ya degrees, and get a job
So you can make a whole lot of cheese, cuz life's hard
You never thought of livin to please a real God
And that's the reason He made you
(See) He gave you breath to breathe, the chest to breathe it
So you can taste and see He's the best, believe it
He made us for His glory, and not for your own, homie
Our God is holy…you should repent and die slowly
See, there's this thing called "Secular Humanism", it says man is the source of all meaning and all purposing. You know what i'm saying? We're just the result of a big cosmic explosion. We don't really have a purpose or meaning, so we just come up with our own purpose. We're the source of our meaning and our purpose. How can a man, which is the product of chance, a finite being be the source of purpose and meaning? You can't! You're created with purpose man! Get with The Creator yo!
Man, everybody got a problem with God
And when you mention the Christ, then they really get to turning the knob
But some say they roll with Christ
Cuz some rappers made him seem like He was cool with all the sin in they life
No!
But then some say, "How could God exist when all this evil stuff in the world keep persistin?"
Wrong question, ask again
How come God ain't let you feel the wrath from sin?
What you thought last night deserves a first class flight to Hell
Where God doesn't dwell, you got that right
But he brought back life on that cross that night
Christ died
You ain't know that it cost that price?
All of God's anger poured on His Son
Been together through all eternity
Now He was shun
Praise God for the life that was won for us
Ain't got a beef with God because the Son was Christ
Look, man, some people say that God ain't real 'cause they don't see how a good God can exsist with all this evil in the world. If God is real then He should stop all this evil, 'cause He's all-powerful right? What is evil though man? It's anything that's against God. It's anything morally bad or wrong. It's murder, rape, stealing, lying, cheating. But if we want God to stop evil, do we want Him to stop it all or just a little bit of it? If He stops us from doing evil things, what about lying, or what about our evil thoughts? I mean, where do you stop, the murder level, the lying level, or the thinking level? If we want Him to stop evil, we gotta be consistent, we can't just pick and choose. That means you and I would be eliminated right? Because we think evil stuff. If that's true, we should be eliminated! But thanks be to God that Jesus stepped in to save us from our sin! Christ died for all evilness! Repent, turn to Jesus man!"
Then read the lyrics below to really understand the message. Back to church tonight, it feels like it's going to be good.
This song right here is for everybody out there looking for truth
And who says, ya know, we all in the same boat
Christians, Muslims, everybody like that
You're looking for truth
(Oh) I got some answers man
(So good to me) let's get into it.
Let's go
Night and day I ain't scared to sayin we different
They play the prostitute, but they like to say they just intimate
Idols in their heart, they can't seem to lose the grip on it
Seem em walking in the direction they can get crippled with?
Our world is different like Whitley and Wayne, mayne
They say we look the same, but we ain't chasin the same thing
It all boils down to they think everything is relative
Jesus might as well be a South American president
Very evident…they say that Jesus was heaven sent
They lifestyle reflects that they worship theyself instead of him
They don't acknowledge the Christ
If they did, they wouldn't worship themselves by the way that they live
All these rappers say they got guns that spray of 16
I got a Luke 9 that can take all 16
That's the Bible, the one they call
But they don't care about the author, They think he's a joke
Man, see some folks say, "All truth is relative, it just depends on what you believe." You know, "hey man, ain't no way to know for sure who God is or what's really true." But that means you believe your own statement; that there's no way to know what's really true. You're saying that that statement is true. You're killing yourself. If what's true for you is true for you and what's true for me is true for me, what if my truth says your's is a lie? Is it still true? Come on man!
I promise everybody is askin the same questions, "Who am I? What is my purpose and my direction?"
Probably believe that you exist for no other reason
Than self satisfaction, hedonism, and pleasing things
Life's about you gettin yours and being happy
Even if it means a divorce and switchin families?
Your job, your house, your car, your spouse
It's all for the glory of you…else you out
You go to school, get ya degrees, and get a job
So you can make a whole lot of cheese, cuz life's hard
You never thought of livin to please a real God
And that's the reason He made you
(See) He gave you breath to breathe, the chest to breathe it
So you can taste and see He's the best, believe it
He made us for His glory, and not for your own, homie
Our God is holy…you should repent and die slowly
See, there's this thing called "Secular Humanism", it says man is the source of all meaning and all purposing. You know what i'm saying? We're just the result of a big cosmic explosion. We don't really have a purpose or meaning, so we just come up with our own purpose. We're the source of our meaning and our purpose. How can a man, which is the product of chance, a finite being be the source of purpose and meaning? You can't! You're created with purpose man! Get with The Creator yo!
Man, everybody got a problem with God
And when you mention the Christ, then they really get to turning the knob
But some say they roll with Christ
Cuz some rappers made him seem like He was cool with all the sin in they life
No!
But then some say, "How could God exist when all this evil stuff in the world keep persistin?"
Wrong question, ask again
How come God ain't let you feel the wrath from sin?
What you thought last night deserves a first class flight to Hell
Where God doesn't dwell, you got that right
But he brought back life on that cross that night
Christ died
You ain't know that it cost that price?
All of God's anger poured on His Son
Been together through all eternity
Now He was shun
Praise God for the life that was won for us
Ain't got a beef with God because the Son was Christ
Look, man, some people say that God ain't real 'cause they don't see how a good God can exsist with all this evil in the world. If God is real then He should stop all this evil, 'cause He's all-powerful right? What is evil though man? It's anything that's against God. It's anything morally bad or wrong. It's murder, rape, stealing, lying, cheating. But if we want God to stop evil, do we want Him to stop it all or just a little bit of it? If He stops us from doing evil things, what about lying, or what about our evil thoughts? I mean, where do you stop, the murder level, the lying level, or the thinking level? If we want Him to stop evil, we gotta be consistent, we can't just pick and choose. That means you and I would be eliminated right? Because we think evil stuff. If that's true, we should be eliminated! But thanks be to God that Jesus stepped in to save us from our sin! Christ died for all evilness! Repent, turn to Jesus man!"
Monday, September 27, 2010
thoughts.
Can someone become so accustomed to change that if they don't have change after a certain amount of time, they start needing it, and desiring change. Also is being on one hour of sleep, and having really strange thoughts not good for you?? Like those thoughts that you think during that one hour of sleep are they real thoughts, or thoughts that are deprived of sleep and aren't thinking right? Oh this post is on one hour of sleep and I really feeeel like I needed to write. I want change. I want to leave. I want something new. I'm desiring to succeed in something else. I don't like being the best at any one thing I think. I think I think, that I like knowing that I can succeed at it, then give it up and follow a new endeavor. Is that strange? Is it weird that when my uncle was being held alive by tubes and I can't find any words to say, how to act, or even what facial expression to have. I'm deep in my thoughts right now, maybe I shouldn't write, why should I even post this. People are going to think I'm weird. I am weird. I have an alter side to me, that not many people know when I'm alone I just think too much, I think that's why I love having so many friends to know incase I lose one I have another. But I've really learned to have a close circle now. Are you in that circle? If you have to think about it, your probably not. Soccer is life, a way of life. Partying is crazy. God is amazing. Family is love, but hate? Love but no unconditional but I feel like I have that. Am I weird to think a human can love me unconditionally, no matter my faults still care for me, love me, am I beyond your thinking level? What about taking a risk of lifetime, just this one chance that if it works it changes your life, but willing to accept the failure and willing to hear all the I told you sos'. Only way to succeed is to fail right? Damn I needed to write. Don't mind this, you don't know me. Take care all.
God bless
God bless
Sunday, September 5, 2010
My Family
What is family to you? Someone who is blood related, or only people in your immediate family? Do you consider all your family, family? I have four brothers, one cousin, a mother, a father, and an uncle. Those are people I consider something more than family. I have two brothers, a mom, and a dad from my immediate family. Then I have an uncle and cousin from my dads side of the family. Finally I have two brothers who are really just friends but that are more than just friends to me, I consider them family.
Let's start with my two friends, Jona Andrade and Dustin Goffan. Jona, I've known him since I was hmm I'd say about 6 years old and he's always been my older brothers best friend. He's been living with my family and I now for about a year, and he's really a great humble kid. He's a hard working dedicated person. I can really say I love him, and will protect him like he's family. We have a funny relationship to, we love pissing each other off. Whether it be from the last ice cream bar, to who's winning in a video game. Haha I'm laughing while writing this, we've had so many funny moments where we just talk shit to each other. When I was younger we weren't as close, but now that I'm older and we share more interests we've really gotten closer and I just wanted to let you know even though you already know Jona your family brother, I love you man. Next is Dustin my nigggaaaaaaaa, (don't take offense anyone it's slang). I've known him forever now, but we recently started getting close about a year ago. It's crazy how you grow with someone, in just a year, I look back to a year ago when we first started hanging out and damn we were fools, and not in the best situations. I look at us now, not only has our friendship grown, but we've grown as people. I love this kid so much for his honesty. Shit if there's anyone that ever tells me like it is, and has to be brutally honest I know I can count on him. Were truly boys, brothers, and I would like to think -actually naw it's a fact I know this fool would do me a favor if I ever needed it no matter what it is, he actually baby sat my little brother a whole day for me at my house and like it wasn't the funnest thing but I had to do something and he had my back. I can get into a lot more detailed crazier stories but you'll have to go out with us to experience that haha. Love you braaa.
Next my cousin Bella, and her dad who is my uncle German. Never have I met anyone outside of my immediate family who gives me so much unconditional love like my uncle. Crazy guy he is, always in a good mood, always smiling, trying to be young. I love it he can seriously be having a bad day but I swear I wouldn't be able to notice it at all. I haven't seen him in a long time cause he doesn't live in the states no more, but damn what I would give to see him again. I'm sure I will one of these days, and soon. God knows how much I miss him, and am just longing to chill by the beach with him, and talk shit while listening to vallenato. Ah just thinking about it gives me a quick jolt of excitement followed by the pain of missing him. The time will come though for sure I have no doubt. Next, Bella Bella Bella, oh where would I be today if it wasn't for some of the talks we had. One talk in particular, I was so close to dropping out of high school, just cause I didn't feel like dealing with bullshit classes anymore. You literally came to my house that same night you heard, it was like 11pm and talked massive sense into me. You've seriously been one of my biggest supporters going to my soccer games, keeping me away from making stupid decisions. For example when I was hustling for money, and doing stupid shit, you caught me and stopped me before I got in any deeper. Honestly I'd probably have a different mindset if it weren't for you. You've always always been there for me prima I seriously love you with all my heart.
Then I have my two real blood brothers. Diego damn, all the shit we've been through together and against each other. We've done some really stupid stuff, to some even stupider stuff to each other. But honestly I can't stay mad at my brother for more than 12 hours probably. LOL yo D since your reading this, think about the day I scored on you at FIFA at 3am and stayed quiet and you just whooped my ass in the closet for scoring a goal, haha I'm seriously cracking up at my computer screen as I write this. I love you big brother, you know I've always looked up to you. You've always been an inspiration to me, and I hope in some ways I can be one to you as well. You have definitely kept me out of trouble, now that I think about why am I always getting myself into dumb troublesome situations? Whatever thank God I got a brother like you to look out for me, I love you man you know we have a bond like no other. I'm proud of everything your doing in your life D you've made me somewhat the person I am today with advice, and just learning from your dumb mistakes haha. Keep looking over me man, I'm bound to keep messing up. Now for my younger brother, for those of you who are close to me know that we call him Mono. Mono man your so annoying sometimes, but I know I'm way more annoying to you than you are to me!! I love you so much mono, I guess that's why sometimes I'm so hard on you about soccer, and stuff it's only cause I want you to be the best at everything. Like in Call Of Duty you rape me in it! I want you to know also Mono that I'm always here to give you advice on anything from girls, to soccer, to anything. Your the best little brother, and I'm sorry for pissing you off so many times, and making you do favors for me. I promise that when I go back to Miami we'll go paintballing again to make it up to you. Your the best little brother ever, and not only cause of the favors you do for me!! Love you monks.
Lastly my parents, my mom. I'm gonna write this part in spanish for them. Mami y Papi adonde comienzo con ustedes. Jamas en mi vida e conocido unos papas que dan todo el amor, sacrificio, que ustedes dan y en sima de eso yo hago y a echo toda las cagadas del mundo. Perdoname por todo las peleas que emos tenio se que tengo un caracter fuerte y no estamos de acuerdo muchas veces. Pero como siempre ustedes ya lo viveron y siempre tienen la razon. Mami, papi gracias por nunca darse por vencido en mi. Si no era por todo el apollo de ustedes y la fe que ustedes tienen en mi, no estaria donde estoy hoy. Mami gracias por siempre hablarme y darme la confianza para segir con cosas cuando yo no queria mas. Papi gracias por darme todo el amor y supporto que me das, y tambien por ensenarme que tienes que luchar para lo que quieres en esta vida. Usted es el ejemplo mas grande de eso, con todo lo que has vivido y ahora haciendo el hermano menor supportas a todo ellos con lo que puedas, y en sima de eso das todo a tu familia. Los dos son personas maravillosas y si Dios quiere puedo ser solo medio de lo que son ustedes. Incredible la fe que tienen, el amor, que dan, y tan trabajadores que son. Gracias por ensenarme todo lo que me han ensenado, por todo los consejos, y por hacerme en la persona que ven en frente de ustedes hoy en dia. O jala les doy orgullo a ustedes para mi tengo todo el orgullo del mundo para decir que ustedes son mis papas. Los amo con todo lo que tengo!! I love you!!!!!!
Damn.........that was a bit emotional. For those who don't understand spanish I'm sorry, that was something more correlated toward my parents. But yeah that's my family, that's what makes me who I am. Those are the people I pray for everyday, and hope God protects and blesses their lives each day more and more. Take a second to appreciate your family, give your mom that kiss goodbye. Call your dad and wish him a good day at work, and tell him you want to have lunch together. Go play basketball with your brother in the park, and then talk shit after. Help around the house for when your mom gets home she has one less chore to do. Appreciate your family, there something special. I love you fam, hope you guys enjoyed todays entry.
God bless.
Let's start with my two friends, Jona Andrade and Dustin Goffan. Jona, I've known him since I was hmm I'd say about 6 years old and he's always been my older brothers best friend. He's been living with my family and I now for about a year, and he's really a great humble kid. He's a hard working dedicated person. I can really say I love him, and will protect him like he's family. We have a funny relationship to, we love pissing each other off. Whether it be from the last ice cream bar, to who's winning in a video game. Haha I'm laughing while writing this, we've had so many funny moments where we just talk shit to each other. When I was younger we weren't as close, but now that I'm older and we share more interests we've really gotten closer and I just wanted to let you know even though you already know Jona your family brother, I love you man. Next is Dustin my nigggaaaaaaaa, (don't take offense anyone it's slang). I've known him forever now, but we recently started getting close about a year ago. It's crazy how you grow with someone, in just a year, I look back to a year ago when we first started hanging out and damn we were fools, and not in the best situations. I look at us now, not only has our friendship grown, but we've grown as people. I love this kid so much for his honesty. Shit if there's anyone that ever tells me like it is, and has to be brutally honest I know I can count on him. Were truly boys, brothers, and I would like to think -actually naw it's a fact I know this fool would do me a favor if I ever needed it no matter what it is, he actually baby sat my little brother a whole day for me at my house and like it wasn't the funnest thing but I had to do something and he had my back. I can get into a lot more detailed crazier stories but you'll have to go out with us to experience that haha. Love you braaa.
Next my cousin Bella, and her dad who is my uncle German. Never have I met anyone outside of my immediate family who gives me so much unconditional love like my uncle. Crazy guy he is, always in a good mood, always smiling, trying to be young. I love it he can seriously be having a bad day but I swear I wouldn't be able to notice it at all. I haven't seen him in a long time cause he doesn't live in the states no more, but damn what I would give to see him again. I'm sure I will one of these days, and soon. God knows how much I miss him, and am just longing to chill by the beach with him, and talk shit while listening to vallenato. Ah just thinking about it gives me a quick jolt of excitement followed by the pain of missing him. The time will come though for sure I have no doubt. Next, Bella Bella Bella, oh where would I be today if it wasn't for some of the talks we had. One talk in particular, I was so close to dropping out of high school, just cause I didn't feel like dealing with bullshit classes anymore. You literally came to my house that same night you heard, it was like 11pm and talked massive sense into me. You've seriously been one of my biggest supporters going to my soccer games, keeping me away from making stupid decisions. For example when I was hustling for money, and doing stupid shit, you caught me and stopped me before I got in any deeper. Honestly I'd probably have a different mindset if it weren't for you. You've always always been there for me prima I seriously love you with all my heart.
Then I have my two real blood brothers. Diego damn, all the shit we've been through together and against each other. We've done some really stupid stuff, to some even stupider stuff to each other. But honestly I can't stay mad at my brother for more than 12 hours probably. LOL yo D since your reading this, think about the day I scored on you at FIFA at 3am and stayed quiet and you just whooped my ass in the closet for scoring a goal, haha I'm seriously cracking up at my computer screen as I write this. I love you big brother, you know I've always looked up to you. You've always been an inspiration to me, and I hope in some ways I can be one to you as well. You have definitely kept me out of trouble, now that I think about why am I always getting myself into dumb troublesome situations? Whatever thank God I got a brother like you to look out for me, I love you man you know we have a bond like no other. I'm proud of everything your doing in your life D you've made me somewhat the person I am today with advice, and just learning from your dumb mistakes haha. Keep looking over me man, I'm bound to keep messing up. Now for my younger brother, for those of you who are close to me know that we call him Mono. Mono man your so annoying sometimes, but I know I'm way more annoying to you than you are to me!! I love you so much mono, I guess that's why sometimes I'm so hard on you about soccer, and stuff it's only cause I want you to be the best at everything. Like in Call Of Duty you rape me in it! I want you to know also Mono that I'm always here to give you advice on anything from girls, to soccer, to anything. Your the best little brother, and I'm sorry for pissing you off so many times, and making you do favors for me. I promise that when I go back to Miami we'll go paintballing again to make it up to you. Your the best little brother ever, and not only cause of the favors you do for me!! Love you monks.
Lastly my parents, my mom. I'm gonna write this part in spanish for them. Mami y Papi adonde comienzo con ustedes. Jamas en mi vida e conocido unos papas que dan todo el amor, sacrificio, que ustedes dan y en sima de eso yo hago y a echo toda las cagadas del mundo. Perdoname por todo las peleas que emos tenio se que tengo un caracter fuerte y no estamos de acuerdo muchas veces. Pero como siempre ustedes ya lo viveron y siempre tienen la razon. Mami, papi gracias por nunca darse por vencido en mi. Si no era por todo el apollo de ustedes y la fe que ustedes tienen en mi, no estaria donde estoy hoy. Mami gracias por siempre hablarme y darme la confianza para segir con cosas cuando yo no queria mas. Papi gracias por darme todo el amor y supporto que me das, y tambien por ensenarme que tienes que luchar para lo que quieres en esta vida. Usted es el ejemplo mas grande de eso, con todo lo que has vivido y ahora haciendo el hermano menor supportas a todo ellos con lo que puedas, y en sima de eso das todo a tu familia. Los dos son personas maravillosas y si Dios quiere puedo ser solo medio de lo que son ustedes. Incredible la fe que tienen, el amor, que dan, y tan trabajadores que son. Gracias por ensenarme todo lo que me han ensenado, por todo los consejos, y por hacerme en la persona que ven en frente de ustedes hoy en dia. O jala les doy orgullo a ustedes para mi tengo todo el orgullo del mundo para decir que ustedes son mis papas. Los amo con todo lo que tengo!! I love you!!!!!!
Damn.........that was a bit emotional. For those who don't understand spanish I'm sorry, that was something more correlated toward my parents. But yeah that's my family, that's what makes me who I am. Those are the people I pray for everyday, and hope God protects and blesses their lives each day more and more. Take a second to appreciate your family, give your mom that kiss goodbye. Call your dad and wish him a good day at work, and tell him you want to have lunch together. Go play basketball with your brother in the park, and then talk shit after. Help around the house for when your mom gets home she has one less chore to do. Appreciate your family, there something special. I love you fam, hope you guys enjoyed todays entry.
God bless.
Wednesday, September 1, 2010
Fear...
Ever wonder about how your life will be in 10 years, 5 years, 2 years, even next year. I mean some people have plans, other choose to just go with the flow and take life as it comes. I don't know, I mean I'm not scared of much but this is one topic that installs fear in me. I have faith in myself to get things done and to live a good life, and a successful one at that. But I gotta admit there are times where I just lay back and think. "What if I never become successful in anything, and am poor and broke and living on the street." I mean my life has always been a blessed one, a very blessed one at that. And even now since I graduated high school I been making my own money off my own hard work, and if soccer doesn't work out for me I have school practically paid for so I can always just get my degree and live a good life. I don't know maybe it's just me, maybe I'm weird in that sense. But damn it it's the truth. I know God knows I'm insecure at times about my self, a little self conscious, and fearful. But it's me, it's real. I sure act as if I don't have a care in the world and my life is the best. But that's just cause I have this other F word installed in me that pushes away this fear, it's called faith. This feeling of fear, and belief of faith constantly go at it. People have told me you don't need money to be successful, or to feel good about yourself but it sucks cause society has put in my head that we measure the success of a person by his net worth. In some cases I believe it in other cases I hate it, cause they're so many people in this world who do amazing things. For instance help feed the poor, make the earth a better place, go to Haiti and help out starving families who have no fault in a natural disaster such as an earthquake. Shit like that. I read something today that really hit me. I was on tmz.com, yeah go ahead act like you've never visited the website. Whatever I was on it, and read about how Mike "The Situation" famous Jersey Shore star, is set to make somewhere in the area of 5 million dollars next year. How? Well the show for one, his "abs workout" video, endorsements (whoever endorsed this clown obviously has no sense), appearances, and his autobiography...I mean seriously what is he going to write about for so many pages??? GTL? Gym, Tan, & Laundry for a couple hundred pages, it's pitiful. Then I scrolled down to see what people commented, and this one comment just stuck out to me as it would for anyone I'm sure. It said, "I was a US Soldier and fought for my country for 9 years and gave my life to it. Now I'm back in states and I only made $20,000 last year and am set to make even less this year. If this guy is making this much money in THIS country for being a douche, then I'm not proud to say I'm an american." I mean damn go back and read that again. The Situation, makes somewhere up to $5 million dollars for partying, being a weird shade of orange, and wearing Ed Hardy clothes. As for someone who risked there very own LIFE for 9 years dodging bullets for OUR freedom, makes somewhere around $20,000 dollars. I mean this is why I learned to not measure success anymore by our monetary worth. And this is why I'm choosing of giving up the fear I have about being successful and not living a "rich" life. Cause quite frankly society is fucked up, and has lost it's way. I refuse to lose my way, and my morals that were installed in me as young boy growing up. I won't forget my roots, and I won't be ashamed of what I become because I'm gonna be something great, regardless of what you say or think. I've been doubted for a large part of my life, and quite frankly keep on doubting me, you give me an added fire to succeed. And not for the purpose of succeeding and then throwing it in your face. I'll succeed and be quiet about it, and you'll hear about me one day. Whether I'm doing it as a professional soccer player, working a 9-5, I'm gonna make a change in this world. I'll make a difference. So fear I got two words for you fuck off, I got faith in myself to live a successful life, in whatever it is God has planned for me. That's all I ask for, God take my life into your hands and let your will be done. If soccer isn't what I'm gonna do that's fine, I promise you though that whatever I do in this life I'll give you credit and glory and I'll do it to the best of my ability. I'm gonna live a happy and successful life, so don't judge me based on shit I do now, and shit I will do in the future. This is me just being, and it's real. Get used to it. I ain't going no where. Dueces.
God Bless
God bless
God Bless
God bless
Aubrey Drake "Drizzyy" Graham
The man in the title of this entry is simply a lyrical genius. What I think makes him so great is, that he doesn't just sell records by rapping about money, cars, and hoes. He sells what's on his mind and what's in his heart. When you can do that and sell over a million copies of your first album, then damn you can realize you got some sort of talent. Think about it though for a second, I mean a lot of his tracks we can relate to like feelings for a girl, or moving to fast with a girl, or being deceived by a girl. I know I have but whatever. On top of being able to rap, and do the smooth softness that requires to do good R&B music, he acts also! He was a part of the Degrassi show for I believe one or two seasons. So this "kid" (in reality that's what he is although he is older than me) is a self made multi millionaire on his ability to act, and express feelings from the heart & mind to a piece of paper, or in his case a blackberry and then speak it with a genuine flow. Yeah a lot of people have that ability as well, but correct me if I'm wrong in saying that Drake has a style that's just rare. No one really compares to his humbleness and I guess sorta swag that he carries himself with you can say.
Nonetheless I'm just really excited about going to his concert on September 21st in Miami! This will be his first time performing in Miami so I expect him to do it big, and extravagantly. If you haven't got a ticket don't bother trying cause it's sold out! Drake is highly regarded as the next big thing, and pretty much has already lived up to it, now it's just a matter of staying at the top and doing what he does. So Drizzyyyy I'm ready for you to come to Miami and tear it up, I've seen the performance you did in Toronto and the energy you had gave me goosebumps, hope you do the same in MIA. No homo haha. Peace!
God Bless all.
Nonetheless I'm just really excited about going to his concert on September 21st in Miami! This will be his first time performing in Miami so I expect him to do it big, and extravagantly. If you haven't got a ticket don't bother trying cause it's sold out! Drake is highly regarded as the next big thing, and pretty much has already lived up to it, now it's just a matter of staying at the top and doing what he does. So Drizzyyyy I'm ready for you to come to Miami and tear it up, I've seen the performance you did in Toronto and the energy you had gave me goosebumps, hope you do the same in MIA. No homo haha. Peace!
God Bless all.
Tuesday, August 31, 2010
RIP Andy Parreno
Sucks I haven't even had this blog so long, and I've lost two friends who never got to even see the ripe age of 20. The thing with death is, it's unexpected, it's painful, it leaves you asking many many questions. I've come to understand to not understand why death, why young, why him/her. We can't question Gods choosing, we can't attempt to comprehend it either or else we'll fight with our mind the rest of our lives attempting to figure out an answerless question. We just have to accept what's happened, and try to move on. Yes, much easier said than done. And yes, much easier for me as I wasn't as close to him as let's say his family, his click of friends "NFU" or his girlfriend my condolences to all of you. Trust me I've prayed, and hope you guys will be good, I know you guys are good, what sucks is I read constantly over Facebook your guys strong faith in comments. But sometimes it's just Gods way of doing things. Let's just accept it, and be happy that he gets to rest in peace and be in the heavens. I promise you he's not that far away, just look up to the skies he's looking right back at you with a big smile. C'mon lets be real that kid always had a smile, and always had a good time you know he wouldn't want you any different now besides with a big smile, and possibly a shot glass. Haha God bless you Andy, your family, your girlfriend, your friends, and were smiling up while you smile down at us.
God bless & RIP Andy Parreno!!
God bless & RIP Andy Parreno!!
Saturday, August 28, 2010
Rejuvenated!
My spirit and need to write has been rejuvenated!! First off cause I'm back in Brazil and you guys know last time I was here it can get boring with so much free time, but the other reason is thanks to fellow teammate back in Miami FC Chris Gbandi! I started reading his blog which you can follow @ www.cgbandi.blogspot.com and it's just inspired me to write, this time not so much as to only about soccer, but quite frankly just whatever I feel like writing about.
Well to start out I'd like to thank all the wonderful people in Miami who I met this summer, and hung out with for making it an unforgettable one, and the way my summer ended was just perfect. Meeting someone great, and coming back to Brazil for a trial with the team I was with last year. God willing it all goes well I'll be staying here, although there is definitely no place like home, and the people that reside there.
Anyways I hope to continue to write a lot more often as I used to, it's really something that I love to do but in Miami they're just so many distractions, and always something to do that I never got around to it. I'd like to begin my return to writing with another website of someone else who has inspired me! She really is an amazing person, and has such a big heart one of her loves is saving dogs and finding foster homes for them. It's really not all that easy though, and sometimes the dogs have to be put to sleep cause they're is no room for them anymore. So I encourage you to save a dog today, or tell your friends, I'm sure everyoneeeeeeee knows someone that wants a dog, well tell them to look no further and go to this website!
http://www.saveadeathrowdog.org/rescue_adopt_dog_puppy_dogs_miami_fort_lauderdale_west_palm_beach_boca_raton_available_pups.html
I hope you guys take an interest in this, and try to make a change, that's something I actually want to rant about. People being so self centered and not willing to help those around you. I mean did we forget that when there is a granny at a street light we should offer them help in crossing the street? I'm not counting myself out on this one, I mean there sure are times where I get selfish, but at least take the time to notice it and try to make a change. I mean must we ignore and be completely rude to a "bum" instead of being polite and telling them "No I'm sorry". They're people to you know, and in fact one of my friends recently told me how she met a bum, and gave up her Friday night, to meet him up in South Beach at his "corner" and celebrate his birthday with just some food and conversation. Unfortunately the bum didn't show up, but it's besides the point. She told me how she just took some of her time one night, to have a random conversation with him, and it led to a random friendship, the bum isn't begging for food or money from her all he wanted was someone to talk to. They be the change you want to see in the world, but I don't see enough people doing that. All it takes is one person starting it maybe you pick up a beer can that was left on the beach, maybe you wait a couple seconds to hold the door open for someone with a smile, it's the smallest gestures that get people thinking, and refresh their minds that this life is more than just money, cars, & fame as stereotypes have led us to believe. So to reiterate what I already stated....BE THE CHANGE YOU WANT TO SEE IN THE WORLD!
God Bless!
Well to start out I'd like to thank all the wonderful people in Miami who I met this summer, and hung out with for making it an unforgettable one, and the way my summer ended was just perfect. Meeting someone great, and coming back to Brazil for a trial with the team I was with last year. God willing it all goes well I'll be staying here, although there is definitely no place like home, and the people that reside there.
Anyways I hope to continue to write a lot more often as I used to, it's really something that I love to do but in Miami they're just so many distractions, and always something to do that I never got around to it. I'd like to begin my return to writing with another website of someone else who has inspired me! She really is an amazing person, and has such a big heart one of her loves is saving dogs and finding foster homes for them. It's really not all that easy though, and sometimes the dogs have to be put to sleep cause they're is no room for them anymore. So I encourage you to save a dog today, or tell your friends, I'm sure everyoneeeeeeee knows someone that wants a dog, well tell them to look no further and go to this website!
http://www.saveadeathrowdog.org/rescue_adopt_dog_puppy_dogs_miami_fort_lauderdale_west_palm_beach_boca_raton_available_pups.html
I hope you guys take an interest in this, and try to make a change, that's something I actually want to rant about. People being so self centered and not willing to help those around you. I mean did we forget that when there is a granny at a street light we should offer them help in crossing the street? I'm not counting myself out on this one, I mean there sure are times where I get selfish, but at least take the time to notice it and try to make a change. I mean must we ignore and be completely rude to a "bum" instead of being polite and telling them "No I'm sorry". They're people to you know, and in fact one of my friends recently told me how she met a bum, and gave up her Friday night, to meet him up in South Beach at his "corner" and celebrate his birthday with just some food and conversation. Unfortunately the bum didn't show up, but it's besides the point. She told me how she just took some of her time one night, to have a random conversation with him, and it led to a random friendship, the bum isn't begging for food or money from her all he wanted was someone to talk to. They be the change you want to see in the world, but I don't see enough people doing that. All it takes is one person starting it maybe you pick up a beer can that was left on the beach, maybe you wait a couple seconds to hold the door open for someone with a smile, it's the smallest gestures that get people thinking, and refresh their minds that this life is more than just money, cars, & fame as stereotypes have led us to believe. So to reiterate what I already stated....BE THE CHANGE YOU WANT TO SEE IN THE WORLD!
God Bless!
Sunday, May 2, 2010
Learning!
Although I'm not in school, thanks to my wonderful blessing of being able to play soccer :) I've probably learned more valuable things through life experiences than I could have through school. I won't get into to much detail about it, but let's just say I'm smarter now when it comes to many things with my life. Anyways, I know most of the people that follow this blog are soccer followers so an update on how my soccer career is turning out well I'm currently playing on Miami FC as probably one of the youngest players there, and a month into the season have yet to dress up for a regular season match, although I have been playing in the reserve matches. It's pretty tough you know, I'm playing with grown men, who have wife, kids, families, etc. So as bad as I want this, they also have they're motivation in their families etc. My motivation is God, and giving Him glory. I'd like to thank Steven Jennings a friend of mine, who is not ashamed to let you know how he feels, and he helped me out to better my life, and I'm proud to say that I'm taking baby steps but definitely making the changes I need to move forward in my life. I'm not going to be tied down by stupid immature things, or people who can't look past what's the next big party, no offense to my friends, I know your not all like that, but some do just look for the next party, and don't quite have a future or plan figured out. Again I have nothing against that, it's just in my opinion to get where I want to be I have to learn to leave, and sacrifice certain things in my past that I once enjoyed.
I've been training very hard, and have begun doing some personal training, I'm going to get into shape my boy Joey Tames, watch how I'm gonna have him looking ladies so be careful in a couple weeks, he's gonna have some confidence and swag that's gonna kill ya! Haa, I usually don't mention so many names in my blog, but this time around I feel like these names, kind of deserve recognition. My non related sister Jennifer Andrade! I love this girl, we don't talk as often, but when we do we catch up on stuff, and always support each other, she also has her own blog, and motivated me to start writing again. I missed it, writing like this gives me perspective, and let's me analyze my ideas, thoughts, and what I plan on doing.
What do I plan on doing? Training everyday, and enjoying my life, with those who want to enjoy it with me. One of the most important things I learned in my break of writing is don't take people for granted, sometimes you may not notice it, but even those who are closest to you, you may be taking for granted. Enjoy every day, and every second, that you have with someone cause it may be your last.
I don't want to end my first blog post like that, so I'll end it with a shout out to all my ladies who know how to treat a man good and hang on to them, you GIRLS are speciallll :)
Cheers peoples I'm backkkkkkkk.
&
God Bless
I've been training very hard, and have begun doing some personal training, I'm going to get into shape my boy Joey Tames, watch how I'm gonna have him looking ladies so be careful in a couple weeks, he's gonna have some confidence and swag that's gonna kill ya! Haa, I usually don't mention so many names in my blog, but this time around I feel like these names, kind of deserve recognition. My non related sister Jennifer Andrade! I love this girl, we don't talk as often, but when we do we catch up on stuff, and always support each other, she also has her own blog, and motivated me to start writing again. I missed it, writing like this gives me perspective, and let's me analyze my ideas, thoughts, and what I plan on doing.
What do I plan on doing? Training everyday, and enjoying my life, with those who want to enjoy it with me. One of the most important things I learned in my break of writing is don't take people for granted, sometimes you may not notice it, but even those who are closest to you, you may be taking for granted. Enjoy every day, and every second, that you have with someone cause it may be your last.
I don't want to end my first blog post like that, so I'll end it with a shout out to all my ladies who know how to treat a man good and hang on to them, you GIRLS are speciallll :)
Cheers peoples I'm backkkkkkkk.
&
God Bless
Friday, March 26, 2010
Attempt...
I'm going to attempt to continue blogging. I remember blogging last year about every game during Dallas Cup, so this year as I finish up packing for Dallas Cup I thought I will give this another shot. No promises though. My life ; it's the name of the blog, but I think as I'm growing, and my career gets more publicity, I think it'll be better if we turn this blog into just maybe a soccer blog. I used to write in here as if it were a diary, from family problems, girl problems, life problems, and although I enjoy writing and it allows me to step out and reflect on myself I think I've learned to do this with only the people who need to know about it. I just don't want to be so public about my personal stuff anymore, so forgive me if it's not as insightful and deep anymore but that's just the way I feel. 2010 ; I've made new friends, close friends, enemies, haters, and learned a lot so far. It's been a good progressive couple of months in my life, in all aspects of it. I hope I can take in all that I'm learning from observing people, observing my own actions, listening to family members, and staying close to God. I hope in 2010 to achieve the goals underneath. My goals will be big, but it's true something my brother says. Why dream of something small, for that don't dream at all, you got to dream big and the good life. These goals will hit all the aspects of my life, some a bit personal, but the difference is I won't go into detail about them, I'll simply say if I achieved them or not.
Travel to somewhere new, that I haven't been, Curucao didn't count, I want to go somewhere else.
Weigh at least 175LBs and it be more muscle no fat!
Establish myself as a starter on a team this year.
Go on a retreat for a weekend with my church back home.
Pray, and find time for church when I'm on "vacation" back in Miami
Teach someone how to pray.
Make 5k in poker for the year.
Learn at least somethings about how to run my dads business.
Get a tattoo ( this is still a maybe )
I feel like I should have more, but this will do for now. I hope to accomplish all of this. But with God's help there is NO doubt in my mind. Don't take it as cocky, take it as I'm a confident kid, with faith in the man upstairs :)
God Bless
Travel to somewhere new, that I haven't been, Curucao didn't count, I want to go somewhere else.
Weigh at least 175LBs and it be more muscle no fat!
Establish myself as a starter on a team this year.
Go on a retreat for a weekend with my church back home.
Pray, and find time for church when I'm on "vacation" back in Miami
Teach someone how to pray.
Make 5k in poker for the year.
Learn at least somethings about how to run my dads business.
Get a tattoo ( this is still a maybe )
I feel like I should have more, but this will do for now. I hope to accomplish all of this. But with God's help there is NO doubt in my mind. Don't take it as cocky, take it as I'm a confident kid, with faith in the man upstairs :)
God Bless
Thursday, February 4, 2010
Miami/Curucao/Argentina..
Interesting how life changes whether it be over the course of a couple years, months, days, minutes even seconds. I've had life changing moments, in all of the timeframes I've given. I know,I know, I haven't blogged in forever, but it's hard to keep up blogging when in Miami, when there is so much stuff to do, and people to see. I hope that doesn't come off cocky or anything, it's just the truth. Anyways my time in Miami was well spent depending from what angle you look at it....I've always said in this blog I would be honest in my mistakes, and in my successes because well I want to have this to look back on, and I don't want lies in this. But anyways back to Miami.
I was coming to Miami with high expectations, excited, and a mindset, that was to enjoy my time, while working hard. My last entry said my flight was suppose to be at 10:50PM my flight unfortunately didn't depart till about 1:20AM causing me to get to Miami at near 8:00AM with the time change and all. At the airport I was welcomed with smiles, and hugs from my family except my youngest brother. It was wonderful and I did get that "no place like home feeling" even if I was at the airport, it was just holding those that I love most in my arms again...Miami oh Miami...well it was Holiday Season so leading up to Christmas it was pretty busy for me buying gifts, wrapping, and doing a bit of playing soccer. Coming up to Christmas it was brought to my understanding that I was going to play for Huracan U20 (Arg) or Tigres (Mex) those were my two options. That stayed true throughout the new year, and into 2010. New Years day, was one probably the most calmest New Year I've ever had, but it was cause we were leaving the next day to the beautiful island of Curucao. Again it was just my family and I a nice get away together. We ATV'd, enjoyed the pool, beach, drinks, ping pong, casinos, volleyball, canoeing, everything that it offered we did! It was a wonderful time, and we even met some pretty cool people along the way.
When I got back I decided to start playing some soccer again, but my agency had advised me to not play, for fear of me getting injured. I abided and would only play some small sided games with some good friends. So with my free time, while my parents were at work, I would meet with old friends, girlfriend, and hang out with my brothers. I even visited my school and watched my old high school soccer team play. Sucks they've lost a lot of players to transfers but kudos to the head coach Kevin Myers working with what he has and sort of rebuilding I guess you could say. Anyways again not much soccer was being played for me, so I kept busy with my family, and friends and did quite a bit of partying, more than I'm used to, and I enjoyed it I met new friends, had lots of fun, and enjoyed my vacation. Still I was hungryyyyy to get back to soccer already so I had made my choice. I decided I wanted to go play for Huracan U20 (Arg) so I spoke to my representatives and informed them of my thoughts. They said wonderful and I thought that was that. I was set to leave the 19th or so I thought. The 15th came around or a day near that, and the decision for Huracan was no longer an option. However Argentino Juniors U20 (Arg) became available. I was still happy to be dealing with a first division team. A meeting was set for us to speak out the details of the deal. We went in and addressed the issues that we could come across, and gave opinionated answers towards each others questions. Although most of my questions were left unanswered, as it seems they didn't know the details of what was going to happen. As I had understood I was coming over here for a year on loan. But clearly that was far from being the actual fact. Anyways after much, delay and talking about me leaving, the 23rd and 25th, they finally got Bryan Dominguez, and I out to of the country flying the 28th and arriving the 29th in the morning to be picked up by Fernando Claviho.
9:00AM we finally touched down in Buenos Aires, Argentina it was an exciting feeling for me, I had been dying to get back out on the soccer field and start playing, and for me I was taking this as a critical year for me in my young soccer career. We arrived here Thursday of last week, the U20's were still out on preseason training so we were set to train on our own until Monday. Thursday we head to our hotel, get changed and hit the city for lunch. After we rested and were told that the next day we'd be moving hotels...So the next morning came, and Sergio (Fernando's friend) picked us up and moved our luggage, they would be staying somewhere else, and we were suppose to run everyday on our own. As for food, we had a restaurant where our food was paid for. We trained and then Monday came, and Fernando had to leave, he kind of left Sergio to take care of us considering he lives nearby and we had met him, and gotten along fine. So Monday came around, and we were NOT training as team was going to start Tuesday so another day waiting. Next day we up and ready for training everything was all set we got there thanks to Sergio, and were ready to train, we were told training was at 8:00AM but it didn't start till 9:30AM, which apparently is the regular time for training every day....We did look sort of lost in the crowd unsure of where to go, things seemed disorganized, and that's probably cause they were, due to sloppy planning. Anyways finally 9:30AM rolled around we were told who we were going to train with, and we did so accordingly. I started out doing mostly fitness, which thank God I trained a couple days before cause it did me some good, and I was at the front of the pack the whole time. After that we did a small sided game, did okay, and from there we had a 45 minute scrimmage, again I felt I played fine without much error. During the game, I had made a kicking attempt for the ball, and when I did the kids cleat came up and my ankle went straight into it. Ouch! I played through it as I didn't think anything of it, however after training we went to have lunch and when I attempted to get out of the car, and I then felt the pain! Sergio advised me to put ice on it, which I did. After I got to the hotel I was barely being able to walk normally. I was in too much pain. Worried, I called Sergio, and asked him what I should do, he told me to skip tomorrow's training session and stay at the hotel and remain off my foot. I did so and requested ice from the front desk, as well as keeping it elevated.
The next morning I was unable to walk pretty much, there was way too much pain, so I took Sergio's advice and missed the training session iced it, and then later on took a cab to the pharmacy got painkillers, ankle wrap, and an ankle brace, to maintain it still. I was starting to feel better almost immediately. Bryan got home pretty early from training, as apparently it was cancelled due to the rain. So I caught a break I guess, or again so I thought. Thursday (today) came around and it was back to training I woke up feeling reenergized as I felt pain free, and was ready to get back out there. Today we were escorted by another Fernando, whom it was my first time meeting, a nice man and took us there, and had a driver sent to pick us up after training. At the training ground I got changed and was ready to run. We did more fitness to start off, and again I stayed upfront. After that we went into a 3 station training. You would run for about 10-15 minutes have a 2 minute break, then play small sided game with 2 touches for 10-15 minutes followed by a two minute break, and have a technical session for 10-15 minutes and then rest another two minutes we did two sets. I was pretty tired after all this but felt good about my performance during training. Once arriving at the hotel, I received a call from my representative back in Miami. And he said that after a two day evaluation (yeah two days) they weren't interested in me, mainly for missing Wednesday's training session although it was cancelled. Now I understand the importance of missing a training session, and even more so when your a brand new player, but I guess I wasn't thinking straight and was just following the directions that Sergio gave me. Anyways due to this, they don't want me as a player as they feel I'm not hungry for soccer. Sighhh, this was so disappointing to hear, as I was excited for a new team, new level, new coaches, and new players. But it seems as due to me missing that training session that won't be happening anytime soon. What I'm trying to say is that I'm flying back to Miami in the next week, to reevaluate my options now for 2010, I'm hoping to look into Tigres again, and if not then I may have to settle possibly for Miami FC if even that. God knows my plans, and knows what He is doing. Maybe if this Tigres gig works out, then maybe that's where I was suppose to go from square one. Again, only God knows I guess. I will pray about it, and hope to get an answer soon. All I know is that I WONT BE MISSING A TRAINING SESSION EVEN IF I'M DYING! Ugh forgive me, for I am frustrated, I know I represent a company, and when they look bad given my actions I really beat my self up about it. I like to be a role model, not the example of something bad, but of something good. So when I get back to Miami, friends shall be secondary as I get back to training while I await my next move for 2010. I can only hope, and pray for God to guide my path in the right direction this time around. I'll leave you guys with something I read in my inbox just a few seconds ago....
Don't put a question mark, where God puts a period.
God bless!
I was coming to Miami with high expectations, excited, and a mindset, that was to enjoy my time, while working hard. My last entry said my flight was suppose to be at 10:50PM my flight unfortunately didn't depart till about 1:20AM causing me to get to Miami at near 8:00AM with the time change and all. At the airport I was welcomed with smiles, and hugs from my family except my youngest brother. It was wonderful and I did get that "no place like home feeling" even if I was at the airport, it was just holding those that I love most in my arms again...Miami oh Miami...well it was Holiday Season so leading up to Christmas it was pretty busy for me buying gifts, wrapping, and doing a bit of playing soccer. Coming up to Christmas it was brought to my understanding that I was going to play for Huracan U20 (Arg) or Tigres (Mex) those were my two options. That stayed true throughout the new year, and into 2010. New Years day, was one probably the most calmest New Year I've ever had, but it was cause we were leaving the next day to the beautiful island of Curucao. Again it was just my family and I a nice get away together. We ATV'd, enjoyed the pool, beach, drinks, ping pong, casinos, volleyball, canoeing, everything that it offered we did! It was a wonderful time, and we even met some pretty cool people along the way.
When I got back I decided to start playing some soccer again, but my agency had advised me to not play, for fear of me getting injured. I abided and would only play some small sided games with some good friends. So with my free time, while my parents were at work, I would meet with old friends, girlfriend, and hang out with my brothers. I even visited my school and watched my old high school soccer team play. Sucks they've lost a lot of players to transfers but kudos to the head coach Kevin Myers working with what he has and sort of rebuilding I guess you could say. Anyways again not much soccer was being played for me, so I kept busy with my family, and friends and did quite a bit of partying, more than I'm used to, and I enjoyed it I met new friends, had lots of fun, and enjoyed my vacation. Still I was hungryyyyy to get back to soccer already so I had made my choice. I decided I wanted to go play for Huracan U20 (Arg) so I spoke to my representatives and informed them of my thoughts. They said wonderful and I thought that was that. I was set to leave the 19th or so I thought. The 15th came around or a day near that, and the decision for Huracan was no longer an option. However Argentino Juniors U20 (Arg) became available. I was still happy to be dealing with a first division team. A meeting was set for us to speak out the details of the deal. We went in and addressed the issues that we could come across, and gave opinionated answers towards each others questions. Although most of my questions were left unanswered, as it seems they didn't know the details of what was going to happen. As I had understood I was coming over here for a year on loan. But clearly that was far from being the actual fact. Anyways after much, delay and talking about me leaving, the 23rd and 25th, they finally got Bryan Dominguez, and I out to of the country flying the 28th and arriving the 29th in the morning to be picked up by Fernando Claviho.
9:00AM we finally touched down in Buenos Aires, Argentina it was an exciting feeling for me, I had been dying to get back out on the soccer field and start playing, and for me I was taking this as a critical year for me in my young soccer career. We arrived here Thursday of last week, the U20's were still out on preseason training so we were set to train on our own until Monday. Thursday we head to our hotel, get changed and hit the city for lunch. After we rested and were told that the next day we'd be moving hotels...So the next morning came, and Sergio (Fernando's friend) picked us up and moved our luggage, they would be staying somewhere else, and we were suppose to run everyday on our own. As for food, we had a restaurant where our food was paid for. We trained and then Monday came, and Fernando had to leave, he kind of left Sergio to take care of us considering he lives nearby and we had met him, and gotten along fine. So Monday came around, and we were NOT training as team was going to start Tuesday so another day waiting. Next day we up and ready for training everything was all set we got there thanks to Sergio, and were ready to train, we were told training was at 8:00AM but it didn't start till 9:30AM, which apparently is the regular time for training every day....We did look sort of lost in the crowd unsure of where to go, things seemed disorganized, and that's probably cause they were, due to sloppy planning. Anyways finally 9:30AM rolled around we were told who we were going to train with, and we did so accordingly. I started out doing mostly fitness, which thank God I trained a couple days before cause it did me some good, and I was at the front of the pack the whole time. After that we did a small sided game, did okay, and from there we had a 45 minute scrimmage, again I felt I played fine without much error. During the game, I had made a kicking attempt for the ball, and when I did the kids cleat came up and my ankle went straight into it. Ouch! I played through it as I didn't think anything of it, however after training we went to have lunch and when I attempted to get out of the car, and I then felt the pain! Sergio advised me to put ice on it, which I did. After I got to the hotel I was barely being able to walk normally. I was in too much pain. Worried, I called Sergio, and asked him what I should do, he told me to skip tomorrow's training session and stay at the hotel and remain off my foot. I did so and requested ice from the front desk, as well as keeping it elevated.
The next morning I was unable to walk pretty much, there was way too much pain, so I took Sergio's advice and missed the training session iced it, and then later on took a cab to the pharmacy got painkillers, ankle wrap, and an ankle brace, to maintain it still. I was starting to feel better almost immediately. Bryan got home pretty early from training, as apparently it was cancelled due to the rain. So I caught a break I guess, or again so I thought. Thursday (today) came around and it was back to training I woke up feeling reenergized as I felt pain free, and was ready to get back out there. Today we were escorted by another Fernando, whom it was my first time meeting, a nice man and took us there, and had a driver sent to pick us up after training. At the training ground I got changed and was ready to run. We did more fitness to start off, and again I stayed upfront. After that we went into a 3 station training. You would run for about 10-15 minutes have a 2 minute break, then play small sided game with 2 touches for 10-15 minutes followed by a two minute break, and have a technical session for 10-15 minutes and then rest another two minutes we did two sets. I was pretty tired after all this but felt good about my performance during training. Once arriving at the hotel, I received a call from my representative back in Miami. And he said that after a two day evaluation (yeah two days) they weren't interested in me, mainly for missing Wednesday's training session although it was cancelled. Now I understand the importance of missing a training session, and even more so when your a brand new player, but I guess I wasn't thinking straight and was just following the directions that Sergio gave me. Anyways due to this, they don't want me as a player as they feel I'm not hungry for soccer. Sighhh, this was so disappointing to hear, as I was excited for a new team, new level, new coaches, and new players. But it seems as due to me missing that training session that won't be happening anytime soon. What I'm trying to say is that I'm flying back to Miami in the next week, to reevaluate my options now for 2010, I'm hoping to look into Tigres again, and if not then I may have to settle possibly for Miami FC if even that. God knows my plans, and knows what He is doing. Maybe if this Tigres gig works out, then maybe that's where I was suppose to go from square one. Again, only God knows I guess. I will pray about it, and hope to get an answer soon. All I know is that I WONT BE MISSING A TRAINING SESSION EVEN IF I'M DYING! Ugh forgive me, for I am frustrated, I know I represent a company, and when they look bad given my actions I really beat my self up about it. I like to be a role model, not the example of something bad, but of something good. So when I get back to Miami, friends shall be secondary as I get back to training while I await my next move for 2010. I can only hope, and pray for God to guide my path in the right direction this time around. I'll leave you guys with something I read in my inbox just a few seconds ago....
Don't put a question mark, where God puts a period.
God bless!
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